``慢慢的，消失了~``

在我的生命里，到底什么是最重要的？
我不清楚。。

某一个时候，
我鼓起勇气翻开所有曾经我走过的回忆~
我鼓起勇气翻开所有曾经的伤心记忆~
礼物，信，部落格 等
记得那天，我翻开了属于自己的‘秘密’。。
那是我一直不敢翻阅的伤心回忆~
但是，至今我打开了。。我看回所有的东西。。
都会所有的日记。。我只能说。。
有人让我很心痛，有人让我很幸福。。
感觉不再那么伤心，会哭泣。。因为我并不爱他了~
然而，还会觉得自己很不矜持，很幼稚，很无聊，白痴。。
想起真的觉得 [为什么我会喜欢那个人？]
哈哈！不可思议吧？
我真的觉得自己成熟了许多。。
从感情的道路上，我学会了很多~

记忆，真的很难让我把它都忘记~
我曾经爱过也曾经受伤过。。所以，我了解了~
还有人我一辈子也不会忘记~

我妈今天问了我几个问题，也跟我谈了很多关于感情的事~
她知道 ‘他’还是会跟我联络，还是会来找我。。
她知道我跟他是无话不谈~
但是，我妈问的问题真的让我觉得。。
[我错了！更本不可能回头。。]
我妈妈问 [如果，他要求和在回一起愿意吗？]
我很震撼！因为这是我更本不会回答的问题~
我承认当初的结束是我一时的冲动！并没有人知道这是原因~
可是，那样的冲动足以让我后悔很久。。所以，[我错了！更本不能回头。。]
我妈确实知道这就是原因，所以。。她才会那么问。。
我和他是不一样的世界，所以会选择离开~
然而，每个人看待的也只是表面的可惜~

我妈又问 [‘他’和‘胜’谁比较好？]
我答 [没有的比较，因为他们并不一样。。其实，都一样好的]
我妈 [你和胜可能了吗？]
我答 [不可能。。因为他。。很完美。。而我。。]
我妈 [为什么？因为你们都是不同世界的人？]
我答 [嗯，差别很大。。所以不可能。。可是，现在我身边还有个他。。比较起来~现在的那个他和胜真的有差别。。胜变成不会是我想要的‘完美’]
我妈 [唔，这也是。。你们的差别很大。。]

看了对话，我真的发现。。我已经放下很久了~
我的家，每一样的东西都有他。。
在我心里是曾经的唯一。。然而，现在呢？
我妈问这样的问题~如果是以前的我，我相信~我一定会回答 [我会！]
因为他是我唯一第一次最爱的~初恋情人
有觉得那个原因很可惜吗？
我和他在一起一年半。。有很多很多的回忆~
发生过很多事，甚至家人反对，我们都熬过了。。
而且，我们都不曾因为无聊的事情而吵架。。
但是，结束就是结束！
并没有谁对谁错。。。

挑起了我的回忆，这是让我觉得最痛苦的记忆~
也很后悔，不能挽回~可是，现在我理解我们的问题在哪里了。。

没关系，至少我们都有属于自己的幸福~

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听着什么样的歌曲，就有什么样的记忆~
音乐的旋律环绕在四周围。。不停的~
音乐会跳起我 [想念] 一个人的心情
[我等你回来] 这又是属于什么意思了呢？
[你快乐吗？]这又是什么样的关心？
[结束了吗？]。。。。。







我想结束了。。。。。。





就这样吧~慢慢的`~
没有爱情的渴望。。。
慢慢的没有留言的信箱。。。
慢慢的没有你的来电。。。
慢慢的什么也消失了！~
寂寞了，停止了~没有了~
还是那一句 [我爱你]


好想你。。

*thursday, just the same*

kepong toilet...b4 de pic pic..^^

yesterday me and laopo go out again lur~
happy nia...
we plan for go kepong eat
shabu-shabu lerhh....my love..yummy**
fansu also eat together nia...
we and yingyng buy shirt^^
hangTen purple colour coler T-shirt RM29
same der....we want wear together go sunway~haha
on next friday~^^ wowow~happy! waiting tat day la..
fansu,fansufren,me,jiejie,yingyng^^
we go together...

and i also very happy to hear this..
christmas we go genting^^
gt room lerh~xixi....happy lar~!!
yeah! this time is 1st time christmas time go genting yeh~
this is my plan too...

SunwayLagoon
Genting Highland
I'M COMMING!!!!!!!
MY HOLIDAYS !!!!!ROCK!!!!!WOW~

love you my dear~muakzzz!!^______^

today, i just the same stay at home..
nvm nvm....haha...
aiyo...today thursday joh...
going sat and sunday again~work lar..
sienz....fansu ganna go thailand...
haha...
and Spm is over soon..
good luck to all chinese exam student!^^

this few days..
i always watch movie until so late..keke
‘宫心计’
it is a nice movie...^^
everyone must watch it oo.....
hahas!!!!

maybe this holiday for me is a diffrent holidays..
a funny holidays..
a happy holidays..
a tired holidays..
no work no tuition.....
my fren all busy of their working..
but i'm so free here~
hahas! really very diffrent..
remember tat last years...
i should busy on my working...no time...tired everyday~
but now is chging...ahas!
but..act i still gt work la..i work as promoter at nsk selayang ad 1 years~
a bored work...haha...alr normal for me..
but next year i need to stop it..
bcoz of my SPM!!
i still thinking whn i'm finish my SPM ..wad should i do?

hmm....
just very scare of my SPM....
but surely go travel with my classmate and my best fren~^^

my life...
how abt gt a relation life?
how abt is a single life?
nth diffrent....
i just wanna be happy...
how abt you all?^^

2010 still got few weeks...
so fast reach..aihz...
a new years...a new life...
a diffrent things will happens...xD
GAMBATEH!

i just stop it...
-bye-

*很闷呐！！！！！*

this is me....hahas!!!

假期的生活，就是这么如此闷和特别。。

一样的呆在家里的我。。

今天哪里都没有去哦~

哈哈！想写部落格。。。

没有朋友约我，我也没有约。。

因为我没钱了啦~唉~

好穷哦~等出粮咯。。。哈哈！

都不知道几时的啦~

我出薪水后，我要去玩！

还要还很多钱~哎哟！真是的!

然后，要买很多东西。。

我要去SUNWAY LAGOON玩^^

我要去SHOPPING^^

HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

真的很期待啦~~~

我和朋友都约好咯。。开心的咧~

19&20号

要回马六甲因为有人结婚哦~哈哈！

然后又可以回去玩咯~

一日游~^^

期待丫~

昨天，我的朋友的报告出鲁了。。

已经怀孕两个月了耶~哎哟~

听说月尾就要结婚咯~

我只好祝福她咯。。。唉~

又多一位朋友当妈妈咯~

很闷啊！！！！！！

现在才几点哦！！！！就喊闷了！！！！！

我要去玩啦！！！！！！！

-没东西写了-

=停=

*saturday,a concert..nice memory*

5/12 saturday~

tat day i work half day oni..

bcoz nite i have to go a concert at sg.wang

shuang oo!!!^^

this time i oni get 2 ticket..so i go with fansu....hehe

while waiting he fetch me..thn take pic again..

chika chika**

blek ><"

very happy i can go...bcoz gt Y2J and Evan Yo..

wow...i love them!!

me and kyo-fansu-

we take pic in the car...before going lar...^^

going lur.....

this is sg.wang hall...

nice? leng~i like it!

see see......picture talking...

Y2J & Evan Yo

haha.....very de hot oo..

and we stand very near frm thm...

at thr ply game thn get a present tim...

haha....a nice memory nia..

bcoz i have it!!!

Evan very leng zai o...

1st time very near to see him also..

handsom boy!!! xD

he come down.....thn sing..

shock!!!!!!wowowowow~!!!

tat nite after we finish see...thn go eat our 'dinner'

on 11pm++

late nia...hahas!!

we go kepong 美食中心

join his fren.....adui....shy nia...><"

after tat his mama also thr oo...

sei loh......

see his parents...feel so weird nia.....aihz.....a weird weird feeling~

haha......

this is a nice memory..

i'll nvr forget...wow~

-bye-

*friday,celebration nite with fansu*

4/12 friday nite...

me and fansu go block house eat out dinner...

celebrate his bufday...

we have our lunch at block house[maluri]~

haha.....

i present this for him...

a PRADA wallet...nice??^^

hope he like lar...hahas!! [PRADA]

this is fansu-kyo-a funny look frm him...lolx

do you noe wat is this???

haha.....a exp thg...nice food^^

snail~~~~~~~

adui....i eat snail lerh!!!>____<"

gt cheese pulak!!!

hahaha.....act nt bad la...nice try for me..

last time i eat bird...this time i eat snail..

wahahaha!!

i like drink this...root beer...[nt a beer oo]

haha....gt ice-cream..hiak hiak!!

yummy^^

salad

this is sizzling lamb chop!!!

wow!!yummy yummy!!i love it!!^^

very nice oo..hahas!!

me and him also like lamb too...hoho...

after we eat thn we go kepong jusco watch movie..

hehe....we watch

'the twilight saga new moon'

act this movie nt bad lar...

maybe we no watch b4 tat 1 ..so gt abit dunno it saying wad..

noob hor..hehe..

and infornt me gt a 'big head'

let me watch until not comfortable nia..

aihz....

we watch joh 2hrs+

after we watch is ad so late loh..

i reach home also ad 1am++ joh..

tired nia...

but happy...izzit^^

long time nvr so late bck home joh..

wow~

saturday still wanna late home...

coz gt a concret~^^

-to be continue-

*tuesday 1/12*

today is tuesday~ 1/12..

yooo!!!! descember liao loh...very fast nia><"

haiz...time dun run so fast can bo?huiyo~
today still the same i stay at home watch movie again lur~

hahas!!!

nth to do....bored nia...

wow~i'm thinking tat ....

this friday and saturday~

bcoz of someone birthday..

i go celebrate with him on friday 4/12 and we also go watch movie..

&

i go 签唱会at sg.wang on saturday nite 5/12..

ahhh~~happy...waiting oo....!!!

today 1/12 my dear bryan birthday!

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to bryan,

happy birthday to you.

i cant celebrate with you..bcoz you nid to exam also..

ur present i will gv geh~but after you exam ok^^

hehe....

just now with you sms..seems like this birthday make you very angry

very unhappy..izzit true??

bcoz somethings abt study happens~

dun care abt it la....parents sure like this..

nvm after you exam i celebrate bck with you ya~^^

gambateh!! SPM!!!rock!!

erm....

this few day i just keep watch movie

下一站，幸福 & 海派甜心 & 18禁不禁

this 3 movie....haha....i want faster finish watch la...

huiyo~~^.^

errr....

nth can write joh lur..

holiday boring~tired wa~

aiyo...stay at home also very tired..siao de me><"

no ppl find me nia....T.T

i want go mutiara tomolo..who want to accompany me?

haiz.......ying yng oo....

no choi me...sob sob~

aihz...sienZzzzz...

-to be continue next day-

*Monday,our shopping day!!*

yesterday~30/11/2009

me and my mun jiejie go shopping again!!

hahas~~~

happy day~i like go shopping with her..hiak hiak!

while waiting her bf come fetch me...

i take some picture..haha..sampat hor..><"

we want to go time square~

^^

~~~

we reach time square is ad 1.30pm

this is inforn the time square big door...very leng lerh~

christmas three.....very big~

this christmas three will stin..

it move slowly~hahas~niceee!! this is S&J under the three~
so special~hahas~!! the snowman very cute right?^^

this is at the time square hall~

wow~christmas feel~very nice wow..

i like christmas~izzit verl leng?^^wow~me and the snowmanmunjiejie and snowman~

gt look alike?wahaha...=p~

very round...><"cute nerh~ munjiejie with x'mas three~

me and x'mas three=p me and jiejie oo~^^

after we finish take picture...

thn start shopping lo....

hahas....even is monday also many people~

hahas...!!

buy buy buy things again lo~!

go toilet take picca~bluek=p

keep buy buy..haha...

i saw this T-shirt..very cute...it is mickey~infornt the T-shirtbehind the T-shirt

izzit very cute~???hehe...oni RM10

i very like it!

this shirt i think i need to gv my elder sister ad..

bcoz i wear like so fat and very short~

i think this shirt look like a nurse~haha...

sexy nia ...hehe

while shopping...we frm time square go to sg.wang

hahas...!! keep shopping~thn we have dinner at 6th floor...

infornt the Green box..but i also dunno what the shop name..

i very like eat dinner with my fren..xixi

~pic pic~picture~

this is take by munjiejie~

izzit cute?look very yummy?hahas!!

i nvr take the food picture~hahas!!but i'm eating chicken!

erm...nt bad lar~

hmm~whn we are eating...

gt 2 ppl is sold ticket...

wow~we are very lucky!

go 签唱会! Y2J & Evan yo~

in this saturday 5/11

i'm waiting tat day also..xixi

5/11~~~saturday~

after we finish eat dinner...thn still gaigai more a while..

thn go bck loh....

bcoz is very late ad la...^^

this is last picture we take xD

very long we never take monorial go bck..

but the bus is chg line...aiyo~hard nia..

we stop at chow kit..but we didn't saw any bus...the bus stop look like

close...haiz..no choice...

we need to take by teksi bck....

very exp nia...aihz...

next time i go must have a driver...hohoho ><"

hmm~

it is a nice day~a sucessfull day again!

buy many things..waste money~hiak hiak..

but i'm waiting this friday and saturday~haha..

-bye-