♥【对不起，我爱你】♥

有什么不一样吗？？

这还是我。。可是唯一的不同。。

就是，感觉好像回到过去的我。。

看过那样幼稚的我吗？

今天，还是很累。。

昨夜，很勤劳读书。。开夜车。。

今天的我。。其实真的好累哦~~

今天的考试。。好吗？不好。。。

因为，不知道怎样做。。

可怜呐~~~

不知道成绩出来是怎样的烂。。

我一如往常。。坐在m mall cc的电脑前。。

依然写下此刻的心情。。。

属于我的心情总站。。

其实，有时候真的不知道要写什么。。

想写英文。。可是，

有个笨蛋不懂我在写什么。。

没办法。。我很懒的解释给他听。。。

如果要知道。。查字典是让你使用的方法。。

哈哈哈哈哈！！

头痛痛的，

昨天。。我真的不知我怎么了。。

突然又想起那个他。。

眼泪依然不受控制往下掉下来了。。

电视机里的电视剧。。是韩国戏。。

它播着的那一阶段。。是分手的。。

伤心。。

可是，我妈妈还以为我真的因为那套戏而哭的。。

真是的啦。。哎哟··~~

真的很想拿起电话打电话给他。。

可是，我并没有那个勇气啊~~

比？还是比？

我们都在改变吗？是的。。。

近来。。。没什么找dar了。。

感觉平复了。。没有一直的想念。。

也没有一直要他找我。。。

可是，dar。。我希望你。。

别太忙忘了我。。

你最近很怪。。。真的。。

我多心？有点吧。。。

说真的。。。

我跟你，到底到了什么阶段？

不要一直说【对不起】

感觉很像你真的错了。。对我做了什么。。

我明白的。。。

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明天，星期五。。

哇！！！又面对考试。。。

考什么？英文1&2。。

明天过了。。就等下星期咯。。

为了要松懈一下。。

我跟宝贝老婆莹。。决定去唱k

也有找珲去。。所以只是我们仨人。。

希望明天会开心。。

我现在跟莹。。

再拖延补习时间。。

刚想到一首歌。。。

梁静茹【对不起，我爱你】

感觉很有意思。。。

这也代表着我。。。

去听听看吧。。。

真的很有意思。。。

有时，在某个时候。。

听了，真的会想哭。。。

想告诉你

【对不起，我爱你】

这是属于谁？

不知道。。

当事者，自然就明白。。

写了那么长。。

是时候停止了。。。

明天再继续吧。。。

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exam week ``weird feeling

new life?a diffrent life....

everythings will be ok~^^

this is what day for me?

a normal day?

a happy day?

yea,this is a exam day.....

i slp 4 period in the class.....

today i really not well .....

aih~today exam BM ...ok?

not......

in the morning~i get ur msg..and i noe you are waiting the whole nite frm me...

aCT..i jz wait you on9..bt you no....

yesterday feel so weird to you...

i noe i'm not care abt what u r saying to me...

act..the problem that u dunno....jealous?may be you noe.....

for a time.....you jz care abt the ppl you want....

exam week..feeling very strss....waaaa!!! wanna die~

sorry, no find you ysterday nite....i was bz for prepare my exam...

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today......

now........me at m mall cc and write down what i thinking of...

you?her?him? whoes noe?

no ppl noe what i'm thinking....

cant type in chinese...aiyor...sienz....broken english =.="

tired~~~~feeling not reli well at all....

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dar,yesterday go play online game again..

yea,i'm not care all abt game...huh~y?

coz i was busy for all....

find me that time is ad late....slep lur~

kor lemon gt find me...waaa....hard to wait him find me also....

are he fine?not reli...no job..alamak..

kor,i pray for you....

hey,guy...digi can free online 2 month leh~

so that my hp can online oo......

hui,act...you also can online find me der~^^

dun think so much....i ad read ur blog la...

maybe you reli alone ....but for a time...that you wont feel alone...

i'm not the ppl that you need....

you jz care abt her ehn you are chating with me..

i care? hmm... some....

but i keep try to help you...i hope i dont...but i cant...izzit true?yes....

how are you this few day?

hope you are gud for all....

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tomolo keep examing.....

hope will pass all oo!!!!!!!!

suddenly want to go learn dance!!!

I WANT GO LEARN NEW JAZZ~~~

but mummy keep dun gv nerk~~sad me T.T

maybe i pay for ownself to learn it....

hmm.....maybe nia......need RM70.....

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what next?

dunno......jz feeling weird.....

jz now read ur blog....let me dunno what abt you need to tell me...

beef??? fish???

act diffrent......sin chan and doremon?

hmm....can think abt it...i jz a normal chibimaruko....

do you think i am the person who wont care?nope~

haiz......headache....dunno what i'm writing ler....

keep this ba.......hope wont get sick.....

stop here~~~

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my life is walking~

this is hui de pic..paiseh la...copy joh...

but i also like it^^

这是属于怎样的一片天空

hey! guy....long time din update my blog ad...

now i comming ler......

now at m mall cc....haha...

hard to go bck and write my blog....

coz the comp is vry lag...aih~sad~~

how abt this few days on me?

hmm hmm.....

last sat i dun hv to to my work....my RM50 fly lur~~~

hahaha....suan ba...coz i go to listen driving undang ad~xixi^^

stupid me la....

alamak~5 hrs at whr....tired me...

eye very berat la~~~~

i go with hui`~~~and he fren lur~feel so weird~

that day ah~reli omg de lo~~!!!

after in listen undang...i go kepong jusco eat and buy cakle for my mum...

coz sunday is MOTHER'S DAY!!!hahas....

buy a yam cake for my mummy..muak muak!!!

i gt take some pic le.......but now i cant put it out...coz me at m mall cc now ler...

sat night...we go yan aunty house to celebrate mei ting bday~^^

waa....leng zai her~~wahaahaha...a diffrent look la~

we go until so late time is....erm...11pm....ahaha....

that day, i off 1 day...Avan got find me.....but i nvr work..blek=p

sunday~

i got go to work...but Avan never work..turn him joh...

wahahaha....dunno y he find me also...

call me help him delivery food?xixi....

stupid ler~~

so tired day.....on last sunday...MOTHER'S day~

nite,mummy nid go 喝喜酒 so cant celebrate with her...

but tonight....dar fetch me out to eat mum mum^^

happy nia...coz so long time never out with him joh lur~

we want go bukit langat eat de...but too far~

so we play to go cheras [kaki coner] eat loh...

but too FULL people ad....hahaha....

i dun want wait...

so after tat...we go he old house see see loh.....

thn we so hungey thn go taman wahyu mum mum....lolx....

sienz~~~~mother's day reli funn people....omg omg!!!

haha...suan loh....

after eat..i 11.30 oni reach home....

this is all abt that day~act gt more de...but lazy to write here~~hehe....

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today~jz a normal tired day~but....more cham

start exam frm tomlo....nid exam 3 week ahh~!!!shit!

nid study hard loh~~~~~gambateh!!!!ling~~~

this few days...feeling not well..hope dun ler...exam lur~~~

after exam 1st la...oni get sick ba~aih~

tired tired nia~

that day read my frenz blog...

waaa......write until so gud...haha....

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suddenly dunno want to write what ad...sienz~

aih`~~~jz hope that exam all can pass nia...hehe

yesterday saw xue ying nerk...happy ler...

damn miss her der....

hope next time meet out lur....

act today gt extra class de....but teacher cancel ad...xixi

so i can come m mall and write my blog here....

but later nid go tuition joh....

so sorry to hui...coz today he gt meet me out de...

bt i no tell him my extra class cancel ad....sorry oo...

coz i oni come and play 1 hrs nia....later also nid go home rest...oni go tuition geh~xixi..

sorry hui oo~~^^

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oh ya!!! yesterday....xixi......

i buy a new bag~~RM45.....nice a bag...

white colour~^^

but get scold la..mummy say too exp...but i dun think ba...xixi...

coz i love it^^

today cant waste my time lur...nid studyhard tonight....

exam lur!!

haha.....my lao por beside me...keep say i havent finish write my blog=p

ok la...stop here....

next tiome write again^^

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_buhbye_

✖败给了自己✖

记得我们的夜景？回忆。。从不消失__

因为想念__所以哭泣。。

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说实话 ，最近的我_____有时。。真的很反常。。
一直会想到很多过去的回忆。。
当我在每一个角落，走到的每一步。。
回忆都好像跟着我。。会问自己
[回忆，为什么会跟着我？]
常想到___感觉就是一阵心酸。。
有想哭的感觉，很难形容``~
闷在心里，很难受啊~~
面对的过去，回忆的甜蜜。。后悔了当初的决定。。
我真的需要勇气面对一切的 [回忆]
最后还是回到一个人。。。
属于我的，
永远也是会结束。。我不会珍惜我所拥有的幸福。。
最后还是会后悔我做的一切决定。。
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当我一个人的时候，我喜欢看着天空。。
当我一个人的时候，我喜欢吹着风。。
当我一个人的时候，我喜欢看听音乐。。
当我一个人的时候，我喜欢想很多事情。。
当我一个人的时候，我喜欢写下自己的心情故事。。
当我一个人的时候，还是会忍不住流下最伤心的眼泪。。

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*____最后只剩下一个孤单的我_____还是一个人____*
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如果可以，
我不希望还是一个人。。。
我也需要一个能让我靠的肩膀。。
但是，那个属于我的肩膀呢？
我看不见它。。。

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我，还在努力生活着____
我，还在持续当“女强人”__
我，还在勇敢的面对我的挫折__
我，还在变得更成熟___
我，还在改变自己___也在等待__
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现在的我？以前的我？后来的我？
有谁会知道？我明白，我一直都在改变。。
性格？还是改变了。。。。
我，想变回以前的我。。但是。。
我做不到！为什么？！
女强人 并不是那么简单。。
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[爱情]----是每个人都觉得很好的事。。
但是，一旦你明白了很多关于[爱情]
或许，也在改变。。。。这一切，来得快，去得也快。。
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你，还是在我心里。。。
有人能代替？没有_____
我想帮自己打开另一扇窗。。改变自己的不愉快___
改变自己的自私，难受___
努力的生活，还是会有压力。。。
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我很想念他。。。
真的很想念他。。。
*同样的一句话，并不用猜测那是谁*
那个他。。。永远都是空的他。。。
知道他不会回来我身边。。。
宝贝？老公？dear? Bebe? Darling? Honey?
这也只是一个称呼而已。。
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每一个人，都会被呵护。。被捧在手心上的感觉真得很好__
可是，我真的不属于被呵护吗？
是属于被丢在地上踩?不知道。。。。
我，也是个女生___
也希望自己是幸福的啊~
等待-----真的是很辛苦的事_____
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那天，我看见我朋友珲___
为了要跟一个女孩接触更多，所以他选择也开始写部落格_____
那天，我读了他的故事。。。
哇！真的让我难以想象那种形容。。。
他的形容很美，很好___
读了，也都会感动。。。。。
这样的男孩，我还是第一次见。。浪漫？嗯。。
我在想 ：
[如果，有个男生也这样对我。。那有多好啊~一定很感动。。]
可是，并没有~所以，还瞒羡慕的。。哈哈 =p
女孩很幸福哦~

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我，真的很孤单~
属于我的呢？？依然还是零____
我很失败，很失败！
最后，还是败给自己！
最后，还是哭了~我真的认输了。。
我很辛苦___很累____为什么，我什么都没有？
为什么我对你一点也不重要？
为什么可以这样忽略我？
为什么你可以这样？？哭，你也不懂！
心在痛。。。。

（都不懂我在写什么吧？因为发生了一些事。。）

我真的疯了！我忍不到！！！这样的哭，到底能维持几久？
我不知道。。。可是真的很辛苦！！！
难受！！！一件事情的发生~输了自己的眼泪！
我真的很弱！到底我该怎么做？！
你呢？不紧张！！！真的很失败！
心很痛！！
很痛很痛！！！！！
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到此~~停____

✖nowadays i'm changing✖

``我想说的话``

我还是我吗？

我随着时间在变。。

以前的我呢？不见了吗？

自己，去了哪里？

没有了他？不是应该过的好好的？

为什么。。觉得自己好失败？

每一天的开心。。

到底是为了什么？真实的自己，

已经迷糊不清。。为了什么在努力。。

属于我的目标呢？

以前的我跟现在的我。。

真的变了。。真的。。

i'm change ....

what should i do??

love ,

maybe that is not the one far away frm me...

but i need it?

what love should i did?

i dunno...

bcoz i noe....

that nth can compare what the love he gave me..

before i leave him....

that is many memory frm him....

ya,i will get bck and see....but..

that jz a past memory...

who is the person..i say that him is who???

whoes noe?

dun guess it please...

coz i wil never tell.....who is him....

that is a screct frm my mind...

shh~

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i hope i can dun think too much~

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okay,talk abt today ba..^^

what i did today?

hmm.......

today after sch, i go mutiara with my lao po ying...

1st,we go eat lunch...

and after that...we go play bowling....

today my mood still ok la...

can keep playing ..wahaha...but still tired..aih~

dunno why i keep tired de loh~

old joh lur....

erm......today play 3 round....

waa~laopo pay for me...

reli gud ler~thx oo..muak muak!

next time i belanja makan la...wahaha...

at thr....me meet maxwell boy thr...

ann also thr der....

i noe ann also thr la...

so i go ask chee weng...but he told me...

ann ad go to uma rani and buy things to eat and buy for him also...

walao eh!

stupid chee weng leave him girlfriend ownself go buy thg!!!

stupid betul la!

pity ann ann oo......

thn, we start play lur~feel very weird thr nerk...

ying take out her sweet is yesterday jian hui buy for her de..

sweet~~

haha....

we sot de...play until siao liao....

waa! today play until like crazy ppl....

so long time never plau until so funny and fully happy ad lur..

**miss miss miss**^^

hope gt next time again...

after we play thn oni bck home lur...

at the bus stop thr...omg...

keep play de lur...

play wat?!!

xixi.....say OCBC stupid talk...

do you noe what is OCBC???

hey! that's not a bank ya~wahaha...

that is...

OCBC means

[ORANG CINA BUKAN CINA]

funny?wahaha....

really sot de loh~~

keep say 虾米 and 舍米(read in hokkien)

haha...stupid!

not long time....

my 11 come lur....

is the time to say bye bye to her lur...xixi...

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feeling very full for today...

but at sch...keep hardworking to study..

feel very hard and stress!

coz dunn what happen i cant concentrate to my study lo...

keep tired..and fall asleep la~

hope i wont like this...

coz exam is comming soon on next next week...

walao eh! scare lur..

this time exam nid mothers come and take the result..

aih~aih~aih~

suan!

i jz can tr my best to get a nice result!

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finally,

what should i say?

hope everythings will more gud...

i keep changing my life and myself..

hope can be the wonderful life and day~

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♥好累的我♥

♥这是一个怎样的幸福？，它还能属于我吗？♥

我要说的始终还是一样。。

一个字就能形容我--累。。。

为什么？

我也不懂为什么我那么累咯！！

精神很差。。皮肤也变差了！！！

怎么办？我该怎么变回来？

好累啊~~

我要上课，补习。家务。。另外还要上班。。

瞒不容易的。。为什么没人能体谅我？

我，真得很累咯。。。

算了。。不能抱怨的~~

快考试了，

糟糕了！这次都不懂会考出什么成绩。。

我希望不会太难看咯。。

其实，我还瞒狂着上课读书的。。

感觉很大压力，

中四的日子，

要学得更多咯。。什么都要用写。。怕怕了_

真是的。。

明年要面对SPM。。

我想我可以“跳海”了。。

哈哈！！！

压力！！压力！！！

现在的我，REALLY VERY STRESS!!!

所以，累~

感觉一直跟不上进度咯。。

什么都落后了。

笨！就是这样。。没办法。。

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aiyor....this few days keep gt many ppl get sick oo...

alamak! my mother la,friend la,teacher la...

all ad get sick le....aih~~

H1N1??!! choi!!!

malaysia still very gud lar~~!!

haha....

this few month...the day very hot oo!!!

big SUN !!!!

big RAIN!!!!

walao eh! can die joh lur~

sure many ppl get sick la....

my lao po sick also....

very kesian la~~sayang oo...

but i think now she is ad ok bck geh~

but start turn me loh~

haha...choi!!!!!!

want exam liao leh~~still sick mie....

after exam 1st la....hahahahahaha...=,="

hey, guy! dun forget to drink more water ya^^

hmm.......

today yng lao po sick...so no come to sch...

but, after i finish school thn bck....

lao po call me lur....

aha...want plan to go mutiara play bowling and mum mum...

today,i play the bowling lucky abit oni de....

but the mark....aiyor....super bad la!!

aih aih aih`~

suan lur....next time go play again

thn try to get high score..wahahaha!!

today my mood not really gud la....

he go play online game again!but i never noe he go play!!

whn i tuition bck...thn keep call him...

he also never pick up! aih~

dar,

i really hope u can try to chg urself!

what should i do it?

i really dun like you go and ply the online game...

coz you never think tat i am impotrants...

izzit? i am not importants with you?

y you need to do like this oo!!!

dar,what can i do can take you noe that i am the important 1 ba....

no mood_no mood_

so that,

sorry loh...

feeling not well also...aih`

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