×我没办法接受的事实×

人生是什么？命又是什么？
当我真正收到这消息的时候，我真的很震撼！
我真的没办法相信，你的病又。。。回来了。。
可不可以不要这样？！记得当初，你告诉我的时候！
我和今天一样，一点也不相信。。
我真的没办法去接受为什么要这样对你。。。
总是看见你的乐观，总是看着你在开心。。
但是却没想过你有这么的一天！我真的无法接受，可是。。事实就是和事实。。
那又能如何？这就是命吗？
你说你最大的秘密给我听，是否我还能相信？
面对你在电话告诉我的每一句话，对我说的事实。。
所有的事情，却让我的眼泪直流没办法停止。。
我不知道我该如何面对这样的消息，和你所说关于我们的秘密。。
我不了解为什么事情一定要发生在你身上。。
我也不了解为什么事情发生后，你才会选择告诉我那些我所不懂的事情。。
为什么当初不说清楚？
你有那么坚强吗？我相信，你并没有那么坚强。。
说真的，从开始知道你有病到现在再复发。。我都一直很担心你。。
或许，你都不知道，原来我会关心你。。。
我真的很担心你的病复发，哪怕我知道还有那么一天。。
可是，始终还是发生了。。。。
我的眼泪像水龙头那样一直流下，但我却没办法忍着。。
在电话的另一边的你，显示如此坚强。。我却没不能让你知道我在哭泣。。
我不知道我在哭什么，我只知道一直以来。。我都希望你过得好好的。。
或许，以前的感情还在。。或许，我还是在乎你。。。我不知道。。
我没办法给你一个真正的答案，因为我还在犹豫不决。。
我没办法答应你任何事，因为我不知道你是否还在骗我。。
我很确定的是，我真的害怕下一秒钟的你消失。。。
我不知道我该如何面对你，如果我见到你。。我很肯定我是【同情】你。。
我知道你不想我【同情】你。。。所以，很抱歉。。
当初你的决定或许是对的选择，可是换来的是悲痛。。
现在你的决定或许也是对的选择，可是换来的是什么呢？恐惧？
现在的你和我站在的是不同的边界。。
你说星期三要动手术了，我真的很害怕。。。
我祈求你，真的会没事的。你会没事的！！！我会为你而祈祷。。
我的脑袋一直重复一样的话【我的病回来了】
我真的真的为你而感到心疼。。。
为什么要这样折磨一个还年轻的人呢？
一定要嫁祸于他吗？
真的不会消失吗？？？
很多的一位对向我！我不能完全的明白这样的事实。。
人生中就是这么无常，该发生的还是发生了。。
很伤心。。。。
你告诉了我很多我不知道的东西，我想放在你心中很久了吧？
我很开心，当我知道你回复我上次的答复。。谢谢你！



境，我希望你没事。。
加油！我会为你祈祷。。。
别忘了还有我为你加油哦！
你的表面很坚强！！！！
至于内心。。我相信你比谁都还难受对吧？
我什么也帮不上忙，只能说默默的为你加油！
为你打败病魔！！！！！你一定会好起来的！！^^.....

the last day of may in 2010

31th may 2010 , monday

today is the last day of may in 2010..

wad feeling?? act is no any feeling here...zzz..swt..haha

this few day feel bad err...

always cant slp well....hate lar wei!!!

how come will like this? whn i woke up..

like no slp whole nite..tired 9 9! duno wad happen to me!!

adui...dream gong gong faster come find me ply chess la...

ish ish~~~too bad...

today i get a news...

i may get my [ayam brand] salary on next month,but nid to waiting middle of the month..too bad..

bcoz tat is jz past my 2 week holiday..aihz..

but, i also will get my pc fair job salary soon on this week...

i noe he will pass it to my friend 1st geh =D

i'm waiting...i really so nid to use money...summore, i nid to buy 3 present...for my mother's day [own 1] , father's day and my baby bday...^^

too bad la..nid to own....hahahaha...

i'm worry whn i'm holiday..no money use ahh....

i want go shopping 1 neh~~wanna chg my space =x

sad.....suan! i jz can wait....my mom say tat's gud..coz i can no nid to use money anymore..

adui~~~~boom dou~~~!!!

hmm...

suddenly feel wanna find a job is jz for selling thg no nid go whr and stand to be a promoter 1..

seems like sell lens, mask, or....wadever la....

gt this job for me????? but nt jz oni for 2 thg oni la...xp

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

AIYOYO~

so headache now.....but i cant rest as well too....

wad can i do oni can slp well every nite?

in class can slp wor...but if lay on bed....hard to go in to dream....

i started to think whr i should chg my tuition class? any idea??

kasturi? LK? or...stay at AEB is better?

can gv sum comment here plz?...hahahaha...

kasturi - kepong

LK- selayang

AEB- batu 5

whr neh???hehehehehe....zzz

exam is comming..see! so stupid lar me..still thinking wanna chg a tuition centre...

hahahahaha...

my life is complicated....

no money....sad...i wanna save money leh~can i do it?

aihz.....

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my baby is going bday on tomolo ler...1th june

22 years old baby~i wanna by ur site whn ur bday...

i wanna accompany u whn ur big day xD

i own you a present.....=p

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act is started nth can write alr..

bcz my brain is empty...

less energy...tired 9 9.....who can tam me slp? hahahahaha..

i'm crazy now....

maybe i will too tired thn mood in bad...

whoes noe....aihz....bad....so emo...zzz

but nth can chg,right?

i say nth can write abt today..but i'm bla bla bla talking sum rubbish here..

haha..trying to let my post bcum longer and longer...

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tat's all....

take care...

miss my baby soo much!mwaks*

ciaoz~

*random life*

woohoo...new chibimaruko things i can collect ~

is baby bought for me 1 noh~~

so hapi de neh~~~wahahahaha~!! is this an nail clipper

haha..dak yii izzit?? my love chibimaruko wa~~

whn i see it i can crazy for this...

but it is exp ...RM7.90 jz a normal nail clipper..

bought it at mid vally....

thx baby oo..mwak mwak!!! xixii...

act i'm collect chibimaruko thg lar..

if who whr still gt sell chibimaruko thg plz let me noe..

i surely FLY go and buy it...hehehehe..

today,30th may 2010 sunday

aihz..a new week again...why the time must past it so fast??

today is my last day job ... woohoo!

i wait my salary out loh.......

say salary..really make me angry errr....

the pc fair job still keep delay my salary out lar...alor..i need use money eh~~~

tat's why i go be dai lou call him out salary...

but a week pass by a week....he still can say next week...really sienz joh...

i think this time promoter job out salary alr...

pc job tat salary also nt yt out...really slow la wei~

hmm...who like salary out for slow? fuiyo! gek hei er...

wa wa wa..
june is comming soon on next weekk...

so fast weeee......but HOLIDAY is comming! huray! i can relax...

sumone say i everyday also relax 1 wor..ciu~~

but i really start study well alr....

exam is comming this june....omg! is after a nice holiday..

i think i should plan my time study joh....

but surely think how to spend my holiday 1st lar...wakaka

i still waiting my baby gv answer me abt 13th june [SUNWAY LAGOON]

hope hv a gud answer lar~~hor....hehe =p

hmm...

i pass my P liscent is past it 1 week alr...

dunno whn i oni can get my liscent...too bad! i still nt yt take ic pic for aunty err...

i think my liscent may late out la....

aihz....i'm waiting i can drive...wohohoho @_____@"

aihz....tomolo start sch day again..sien neh~~

almost start to dun like my sch life...

i dunno why...maybe bored...maybe feel alone....

i also duno why....jz always duno busy wad wor....

ahar!! gt a happy things!

my modam come bck lah!!! wahahaha! syok oo!

bcoz i can online 99 joh....

but sumtime...online also is bored 1..fb also bcum sien joh er...xixii...

hmmm...dunno want do wad oni can away frm bored...haha..

stupid me lar...==" swt

hey, guy...izzit my blog post very long??? haha...

so many ppl always say lazy see my blog..bcoz is toooo long...

wahahaha....so many ppl complan..zzzz.....

so many my privacy? i dun think so...haha...

jz my life thg oni ler....

but dun be 8 po gv many ppl xuan chuan thn ok joh...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

now,turn to relation life...

ya,still nice^^

i comfirm tat b4 really think too much bad..

maybe bcoz of tat noob mail....

sorry baby.......maybe bcoz of this make me or u feel bad..

but it is alr past right^^

thx for trust me..mwak*

so miss you all the day...

so miss you all the time...

i wanna hug you....need a warm shoulder...xixi

i love you ooOOo!!

no matter wad...i'll be thr for you....

gv you all the powerful of love...wahaha... mwak!!*

take care..

ciaoz~~

* a week ~*

1 week i no update my blog..the reason is..aihz....
my comp nt yt finish repair...
now still the same seat at cc...
write abt sumthg at here too...

1st of all...
i have to congratez myself...
bcoz this morning i go test my P driving liscent~
phew~lucky i did't fail....ahahaha...i do it myself...happy!~
i vry scare whn start..but i finish it~!
i share this happness to my mom and my frenz too...
ofbcoz gt my baby lar...^^
but...he look so fuyan.....

this few day~
i gt feeling weird to him..i dunno why...
am i scare? duno....
gt sum happend on his mail....dunno which stupid person do sum such thg
set me up.....so gud my boy no believe it...
i really hope tat ppl dun play this thg and set me up...
i dun like it like tat....
so, maybe i feel wrong alr...bcoz i really started feel my boy so weird...
maybe i think too much~
aihz....i noe he bcum so fu yan~
nt so much scare of me..maybe we r chg??? hope no~
this is how he treat he gf..i noe.....
but i'm worry~
may i noe who is no worry abt own bf? plz let me noe...


"[tik tok tik tok]"
time is going faster and faster...
june is comming....and i going to finish my part time job at nsk..
am i happy? nt so...bcoz no salary alr...
what should i do on next? hmm...i think is STUDY
my SPM so near alr...is comming lar....

june have a 2 week holiday~
what's a day....i also duno....
13th june my sis is date me go sunway lagoon...
with storm lai'? yea..but dun hv a comfirm...
but i hope i can go.....hehehe.......am i??

act, i plan to go genting......
still dunno how....zzzz

my relation....
i dunno how i can do it...fully sadness..
seems u r nt care baby~
maybe this few day you busy on work...
so many things have to think?
i dunno what i can do to you.......





tat's all....
ciaoz~

♥最幸福的事♥

我，静静的坐在一旁。。

听着一首接一首的歌。。。突然，真的很想念你。。

我知道，这时候的我。。电话不会响。。

因为，你已经开始慢慢少找我了。。

【你会想我吗？】

【你在干嘛呢？】

我知道你在工作。。。尽管我再怎么想念，我都得忍耐。。

宝贝，你知道吗？我们的一个月快到了。。好开心哦~

虽然只是一个月，说长不长。。说短不短的。。。

这一个月里，我简单的感受到 【满满】的幸福来自于你。。

我很开心，我认识你。。

我不知道我们的感情有多长，但是我很珍惜我们在一起的每一分每一秒。。

哪怕我见你只是那短短的几分钟，虽然有些不知足。。

但是，已经很开心了。。。

那天，你说不能来找我。。我真的很失望，尽管我知道你没有交通。。

我错了。。抱歉啊~宝贝。。原谅我的不体谅~好吗？

可是，你也在瞬间把失望转变成期待~~

看见你的感觉真好。。。

对，能长见面固然很好。。但是，就就见一次会更珍惜~

同意吗？

宝贝，这几天。。你应该都很忙吧？

要好好照顾身体哦~感觉你总是生病的。。

况且，星座书也说你健康状况不是很理想。。

你啊~不要太忙而忘了好好休息~

总是担心你的我。。。

真的能希望好好地在你身边盯着你。。。

哈哈~傻了~~=p

现在，在我的生活里。。世界里。。

像是不能缺少你。。。因为，你已经是一部份。。

突然，想问一道很傻的问题。。

【如果有一天我消失了，你会怎么办？】

这道问题真的很白痴我知道~~呵呵~

满脑子都是你。。

满心里都是你。。

宝贝，

我好想好想你 也 好爱好爱你~

我等你拥有属于自己的车车哦~

等你来找我。。嘻嘻~~~

我把这张照片放上【面子书】了。。

呵呵~~~~

好看吗？？？哈哈哈~

我要让全世界都知道，你是我的男朋友！！

哈哈哈哈！！！！

我是最幸福的。。。

而对我，最幸福的事 就是。。【爱上你】

黎良鑫 宝贝~

【完】

wad's a day?

todaAy IS teacher's day...
how a day? yes,is nice!^^
hmm...i bring my camera to sch...
take alot pic with my fren...^^
but..too bad....
i cant upload.......waD A stupid comp at here..zzzz
nvm...i will upload .....but dunno whn..zzzz

so tired err....
i see alot funny show at sch also...wahaahaha...

*skip*



new week again...
my comp still nt yt came bck...miss it lar...
aih...no choice...i should come cc on9,jz near my house..
still the same,on msn,facebook and blogger....
i try to upload sum pic here..but nt done...
[noob] de lar.....ish!!!!
a nice day for today...
a nice day for teacher...
this is my last year 2010 in this sch...
smk(p) jalan ipoh
wad a xxx sch??? hahahaha.....

i jz can say....
everything will be fine in all the time...
my sch life still gt half year have to end up..
wad a feeling frm me??? hmm...
jz will think abt after this year...work..zzzz
adui~sad la....i noe tat time surely will miss study time..xixii...

20th may is be with my baby 1 month alr...
sooo happy^^i really hope can keep it for long...maks...
but tat day also is a last day i learn driving...
thn i should wait until 24th may [monday]
tat day ,hope is a lucky day lar...coz i'm going to test my driving
and hopefully will pass!!
aihz........i noe i will..wahahaha....
i will try my best on tat day~cheer me up ya..^^
after tat i can take my driving liscent alr...wowowooooo`=x

wowow~is coming is coming.......


to be continue...zzz ciaoz`

♥幸福，就在此♥

[早安，各位]

早晨的阳光，新鲜的空气。。

这里有你的气息，我的呼吸。。

你沉睡的样子，打呼的声音。。

看着你。。让我。。

我拥有幸福的温暖。。有谁不希望看着这样的宝贝？
现在的我，

静静的在这里写下关于他的一切。。

觉得自己开始在幸福。。。好几好久都没有这样了。。

我能真的放下全部吗？

慢慢的，把自己变成最爱你的人。。

慢慢的，把心给你。。

慢慢的，不想失去你。。

我真的希望来得快的东西，我要那么快消失

好久好久，没有感觉[爱]这个字了。。

但是，我真的[爱]上你了。。。

或许，[爱]曾经对我而言是过去。。

对我而言是受伤，是不再想要去相信的东西。。

是我错了吗？

现在的我，变成了打掉那样的念头。。只想好好爱你。。

[宝贝，你会离开我吗？]

我想这样问你。。想知道你的答案。。

但是，我并没有勇气。。

现在不会离开，那以后呢？

当我决定开始这段感情的时候，我就决定把你成为最后一个目标。。

怎么说呢。。就是如果真的在哪天我们分手了。。

我应该就会停止谈恋爱吧。。

[爱情]

本来对我而言是脱离不了的东西，

曾经单身郭很久的我。。对于爱情看得真的变成很复杂。。

单身生活，孤单。。我就只能这么说。。

现在的我，是你让我不再孤单。。

我喜欢现在的感觉。。真的很喜欢跟你在一起的时候。。

我喜欢好好的看着你，好好的拥抱你，好好的亲吻你。。

好好的，爱你。。。这样就够了。。

我什么都不奢求。。我希望能永久，可以吗？

我不想受伤，不想失去。。可以吗？

我希望是。。。。

爱上你，并不后悔。。

或许，认识的时间不长。。

但是，你能让我这样情不自禁的爱上你这臭宝贝。。

赫赫~爱我吗？

多少句的[我爱你] ，多少句的[我想你]

但，我给你唯一句 [我不会离开你]

幸福，就此不希望消失。。

眼前你的，让我感受好久好久没了的感觉。。

谢谢你。。。宝贝。。

真的好爱你。。怎么办呢？

sweet memory jz for you and me...

love until the end of the life with you

i jz wanna be with you always..

no matter wad,i jz wanted you...

everythg and everythg....

-i love you~baby-

for so long.....

long time i nvr touch my blog..
bcoz my house comp is spoil..zzz..sad de neh~
i hv so many thg have to write at here..
need how long??? haha...i no chance to put my sweet pic here also..
alor...reli sad...=p
nvm..i jz write it here....

my life,is complicated..like turn to bcum alone...
at sch, at house.....i really feel alone whn you r nt beside me...
why suddenly like this? act i also duno ...aihz...
make me feel so bad....
but,i'm strong....

frienz...
wad means is frenz?
wad do you think?

hmm....
talk abt my baby...
remember tat last monday,i hv a date with baby
we go 1u hv pour lunch at sushi zammai..taste ok la..
thn wednesday, baby take free gift speaker for me at nite..
i'm busy doing my foilo...he come at nite like 11pm sumthg..
after tat,come my house accompany me do my homework till 1pm..
wow~so long time no ppl like tat accompany me alr...
feel happy^^
love him much! <3

gt 3 day he going ipoh work....thr have a pc fair..
alor.....3 days for me like so long err....
hard to wait till today...i hope can see him soon...baby..
miss him badly nia....
woowoo...but i noe tomolo i can date with him joh...
hehehehehe.....

act,i also duno wad i write lar...jz feel so happy whn i can saw him...

abt family..
my mon go china alr...
this is 3rd day she at thr...
at home...everythings i should done it...
huhuhu~ tired neh~
mami, i alr how hard you are......
so miss her lar....nid wait till friday she oni bck...
and waiting her buah tangan wor...xixixiii...xp

aihz...
duno my blog wad happen...
i'm alr chg my bckground...
you all can see it??? leave a comment let me noe ya..
bcoz i cant see it..zzzz....gek sei...


hmm..stop here~
ciaoz`