♥ strive! strive!♥

morning, this is before i goes to sch...
i took some pic and post it here...
Spirit of the poor...aih....
look bad?

- my studies life -

this few days~i'm getting more stress for ownself in my life..
why? it's bcoz of my study...
i need more hardworking form now on...
i dun hv so much of time for me to study alr..
more few weeks i'm going trial alr...dead time for me..
now, i alr starting fight with my all subject...
haihz....i felt so stress..bcoz i gt alot things is alr forgot and...
my understanding is nt really well..
is bad for me...

i get my passed result alr...
walao!i cant believe i get A2 in my english result..
hahahaha..the 1st A's in my form 5 ...xD
so stupid la me....
aihz...but other result still so poor..Especially my BM...
really poor till can die...
how can i score in my BM?
alot teknik for me...but i really dunno how i oni can use it.
as the same way~i hate my BM...
act,i duno why i so hate BM..
but BM is killing me...=(
until this moment,wad should i do? that's it...
the way i can do...i jz can hardworking doing my revision..
and start burning all paper and make a juice..xD
my aunty said:
[Very easy, u write all d formula onto a paper,
burn d paper n mix with water/juices n drink it,
sure u will forever remember 1 ......keke :p]

hahaha....
if can..sure i will do it...xD

aihz.....
finish this week...going next week...
september is coming....
we have 1 weeks of holidays and 1 week for ganti class and holidays~
i have no time to go out actually...
and i have no time to think other things alr..
i jz can cheer up !!!
strive!!! khoo may ling!!!
if u wanted have a nice future thn u must fight now!
no ppl will help u if u get a stupid result..
tat time is really bullshit alr..

today,
i listen to my classmate how they planing whn the 2 week of holidays..
going shopping...travel...
look so nice....but....izzit time to do this?it is great so listen tat..
their holiday is full of schedule ...nicely
hmm...but my heart is asking ...
[izzit nt scare the coming trial? and am i doing the same things?]
actually, whn i hear they are planing their schedule,i was scare.
why? bcoz of coming trial is after the raya holidays..
it's really OMG to me....felt so stress..!!
aihz....how i also cant away the thinking of TRIAL!!!!
aihz....i really scare my result...
whn i saw bck all the question....
tat's really killing me in all subject...
i told myself i wanted to pass that's enough to me..
aihz....can i? ya, hope i can...
cheer me up please...

my gor always called me dun fail my BM subject ..
all my family and my friend called me hardworking...
and...dun fail my result...
stressfull... ish ish!!
even i'm tuition now and i get more knowledge...
but i really need a teacher who always teach me in 1 by 1...
i told the truth is...all subject is killing me now!
hey! all human, dun always think i'm so lazy and noob!
i got do revision...all the time!scare the test all the time!
i really gt strive lar!

hmm...now, is turn to ask myself..
how i plan in my holiday?
full of travel,shopping,sleeping...
free all the time for schedule ?
NOPE!!!!!
bcoz i'm giving ownself a time table to do my revision..
this is wad i'll do in this holiday..
fight with my all subject..
fight with my all studies...
fight with ownself brain...
i REALLY dun hv TIME and NT enough TIME ..
can STUDY!!!
wuwuwu~~=(
i really scare......
who can help and be my 24 hours teacher???
please la...faster come!
i needs all note...
form 4 and form 5 importance note...

wanted play or wad...
this is all after my SPM...
earn money and happiness...hahaha!
i dun have a lots of time stay infornt my computers..
i should PUSH myself in all the way i can!
PUSH lazy to be hardworking!
do some sport to make my energy bck!
everyone is fighting with their studies...how abt me?
yes, i'm coming~

not so long...
i'm setting my SPM....
i was scare.....
tat's my future....it can be change everythings...
how i can get a nice job...
how i can get a nice salary...
how i can slove some learning collage prob..
how i can go to some whr to studies...
FUTURE!
all bcoz the PAPER SIJIL...
i dun want a empty and bullshit result..
even it is jz a papers...
but,it can change alot things...

i have no time to think out of studies things..
now, no one is importance thn my studies fight in my future life..
i have no time!!!
stress stress is coming to me...!
very dizzy everyday!
felt very dizzy~~~~zzzzzzzz
all really! killing me!
i wanna shout out...'HELP'
but no one will help...bcoz no ppl will help u to do the exam..
true? aihz.....damn!
i had alot prob...
family...
friend...
all the relationship with all people...
guys...i wanted to said...
i have no time!
and....i dun care even u'r good with me ornt...
even i'm alone all the time!
tat's a nice prob for me....no distrub...
alone....sometimes..really is good...
i dun want make other things distrubing me...
a relationship in love or with a person...
all really non of my prob..
i dun want get the distrub....
all sad....all unhappy...
i wanted to RELEASE...
focus on my study tat's enough to me...
as kayson told me...
GOD is a best things...be a forever friend...
so,u'r nt alone....
i really believe kayson wad he said to me..
thanks...

alone is nt a things tat i wanted to scare and care...
be happy for ownself..
still got other people will care abt u...
i noe....all is supporting me...

mayling said,
she will try to be good in her result...
she will try her best to pass all...
gv some confident for ownself...
don't break the promises to someone...
hardworking!
studies is now....my life...future....
TRIAL
SPM
coming soon...


mayling nvr break the promises i post here...
gambateh!!!
nth is important thn studies now!

-i'm change-

fight with my future....

认为还可能吗？？
为什么，我又这样？？？

♥ diffrent =) ♥

this is now......the long hair with rebonding alr..

oldest pic whn i'm short hair...hehe
how how? izzit look diffrent with now?
hahaha....izzit childish??=)

gv some comment leh~~~hehehe...

suddenly i find bck all this picture...
i felt so memorable..
but,for sure nt oni this la..
hehehe....
jz look so diffrent with now...
hahaha....
bcoz i'm mature alr...

hmm...
short hair nice or long hair nice?
=)

xx friend? xx

这是以前的照片。。
和最好的朋友。。。我真的很想念当初的我们，
我知道。。回不到过去的。。
我们都要往前看。。。

你，有了感情朋友就忘了吗？
难道他真的还比朋友重要？
明明就和他好回了。。为什么还说没有？
为什么要这么说。。。如果分手了哪来的纪念日`？
真的很好笑。。。
他对你那么严厉+变态。。为什么你还要给他机会？
爱真的让你愿意承受吗？
我一点也不了解。。
就这么情愿被绑着么？
很痛的时候，就哭得崩溃。。。

u noe,u always break the promises?
am i trust u tat i wont get hurt??
i really duno how to say you...
whn i saw you cried...i really will sad for you..
i dun want who bully you....
i keep our friendship deeply..how abt you?
aih......i'm worry u always....
i care u this best friend...
are you still remember last time how nice memory we have?
last year,i still can celebrate bday with you..
how abt now?? i cant celebrate with you..
jz bcoz of tat ur stupid boyfriend...
dun let you out with friend...
are you really wanted for him to control u??
ying yng,
i dunno what can i say now...
whn i saw the pic u with him....
i really noe tat..u'r lie to me..tat u said...no!
wad means for....
both of you are nt together and still counting anniversary?
aih...
maybe for you..this is ur happiness lo...
i also cant do anythings to u...
i disappointed to you...
tat i saw you cried bcoz of him...alot time...
he scold u..
he beat u...
how he treat u....
i really cant accept a boyfriend will do sucks things to a gf..
wtf!*
i really dunno...why u can keep it..
can be ......aih...
izzit bcoz of LOVE?
i think so.....
how much of the love power make it like this?
for me...this is nt really love...
very sucks!
i felt so bad....

suddenly,
i really emo bcz of you...
how much i try to protect u,
very caring....but....i jz leave me alone..
izzit friend should be like this?
i dunno how i can said.....
i jz noe....all is bcoz of him!
wad the hell he will control u like this....
shit person! i really dun like him alot....
not oni me called u leave him...but u don't
aih.......
how i emo also no use...
this friendship for you..maybe is jz whn u need me...
i keep it hard.....
best friend for you...wad means in?
empty things?

ya,i jz can wish u happiness...
i cant do anythings..
and u jz listen to him ONLY

u'r breaking a promises alr...
ing~

♥ 加油 ♥

坐在电脑面前的我~
没有任何想法的我。。
闷闷的~陪着歌曲的旋律，我正在沉醉当中。。
歌曲旋律的徘徊在我身边。。
舒缓着自己的情绪。。。
昨日，我经过了我觉得最回忆的地方。。
我坐在车里。。思绪开始是当时的过去回忆。。
我没多想什么。。但是，我的心是这么说的
[人，总是不能活在当下。。要往前看。。
我知道他就在这，但是我却只能当作不在意]

昨夜，我去了wangsa maju。。
去听了嘉康利 [shaklee] 的讲座会~
也可以说是一个meeting啦~
听了好多关于健康的东西。。
让我好有信心做这帮助人的工作。。
shaklee是保健品，是全国第一好的！
在这里我也很难解释，不过真的很有效。。
刘子贤 是前任NTV7的主播
昨天他就是来跟我们讲座~~课题很有趣~
他的人很friendly 哈哈！
我知道，下次如果还是他讲座，我会去。。
哈哈哈！太风趣了~
我们有和他合照。我很丑很肥啊！！


昨夜回到家都好迟了，
好累~不过觉得很满~~哈哈哈！
得到的知识真的很多。。
关于人体的构造`。。


今天，原本我驾车跟她们去sunway的~
因为没钱了加上很累
所以，我没去了。。
可是，
我并没想过没有驾照的人居然驾车到sunway那么远~
好夸噢~~~
不过，我很佩服！^^
很后悔没跟她们出去，因为。。
我真的呆在家好闷。。

原本以为可以补眠久一点。。
但是很气死人，我姐起早八早的打电话。。
都是因为TM 的事情！
真的很讨厌那个tm的咯~~办事都办不好。。
哎~~~~骗人。。还说会来。。
还我总是要出门都不行。。。

唉！呆在家闷得乱！不知道要干嘛~
听歌~听歌~听歌~~
没事做了~最近看了几部戏。。还蛮不错。。
读书？唉~今天想放一边下下~
更讨厌的是等下要打扫房间~~哎哟~~
我呀~很想出门。。想去血拼啦~~
我想买东西，我想吃很多食物~=(
我想要车！！！！！
唉~~~想要搭车就头痛了。。
好想做工哦。。因为口袋空空。。
都不知道那些没有工作的女生前都从那里来的。。
她们都好有钱哦~
我呀，下定决心毕业后要拼命赚钱！
做富婆~~哈哈哈！
还是花自己的钱最好。。。
可是，我了解并不是那么简单！
是否shaklee能让我成功？
我希望是哦~~~嘻嘻！

以后的日子没人知道会怎样。。
但是我会努力冲刺！！哈哈！
我不知道自己会不会改变，
是否对别人还会不会有偏见，
是否这么自信。。但是我会努力！
我不想像个小孩。。


铃，加油！

♥ 刘若英 我们没有在一起 ♥

词:黄婷曲:陈韦伶



你一直说的那个公园已经拆啦
还记得荡着秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气我真是想念

那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了谁还在等呢

这杯咖啡忘了加糖真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难我当然都明白

可是啊只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

那条路走啊走啊走啊总要回家
两隻手握着晃啊晃啊捨不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧管它去哪呀

这杯咖啡忘了加糖真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难我当然都明白

可是啊只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

可是啊只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心其实更长

♥ 回到一个人 ♥

主唱：光良


隐隐感觉到
你紧张的心跳
伸手只牵到你的味道
没有人忘掉
没有人睡得着
没想到思念无法治疗
没有我的依靠
你走的方向会不会像逃
在你的心那一角
有没有听到
我每天衷心的祈祷
而我的坚强还剩多少
你让我回到一个人
没有你的另一个人
原来我有一部份
陷入你灵魂之深
你让我回到一个人
我怎能再爱得完整
没有你分我体温
风一吹特别冷
心更疼 

♥ 感叹 ♥

这样一个天空~
云朵还在飘着~看着，想到什么？
我，忽然想问问~远方的你~好吗？
幸福吗？开心吗？
脑袋不停环绕着感叹的话~

我孤独吗？并不~~
我的生活一直都在转变~
不停的~~不停的~~
身边不断有朋友的陪伴~
但是，现在的我就算是孤单一个人，已经不会害怕~
我已经尝试一个人的日子，
我找到我想要的。。我找到我的唯一快乐。。
那就是一个人的生活。。
记得那天，发生了一些事情。。
得到了原来并不想像中的结论，
原来[爱]得太深，所以被[伤]得很痛~
原来，我已经很害怕。。
我没想过有一天我会因为害怕而不恋爱~
都是因为他吗？
我说过，我给自己一个机会让自己在爱多一次，
他会是我最后的目标直到我更成长为止~
我告诉我自己，如果这恋爱停止了。。我想。。
我已经害怕了，我怕我爱上别人。。

最终，这场我一直都很珍惜，付出的感情。。
还是拥有那样的结果，我还以为我可以很坚强的去面对。。
这一切我想的太简单。。。
原来我已经有阴影，爱不下去了。。我害怕。。
我崩溃了，我彻底崩溃了！
我又再一次为他掉了好多的眼泪。。
哭得心如刀割！我真的很痛！
那天，
莫名的守护者来到我面前，拥抱我。。
给我最好的安慰。。谢谢~
我不知道我哭了多久，眼泪一整天都没停过。。
心情很糟~很糟~
我没办法对任何人解释那样的情况比我之前更糟糕。。
我没办法对任何人解释我的痛到底有多深。。
我只知道当大家问我的时候，我感到很抱歉。。
因为这是不能解释的心痛！
我没想到我忍到现在最后，败给的却是自己！
这样的痛，我想彻底的哭出所有！
[better in time]
可能是最好的证明。。
但是对我而言已经变成了一辈子的伤口。。
为什么？因为我发现让我觉得不可思议的事~
因为我已经接受不到了！
我恍然大悟我发现了自己最深处的伤口。。
裂开的伤痕，是没人能弥补的。。
我很抱歉，我已不会说 [我爱你]
我更加不愿意去触碰会容易碎的爱情。。
当每个人都认为我会再恋爱的时候。。
各位，你们都错了！因为，我已经随着伤害在改变。。
我希望，有人能让我把信心变回来..
我从来都不知道原来我上得那么深，
因为我之认为自己很坚强！
总是被别人认为坚强的自己，我输了~
其实，我并不是你们想象中的那么强悍！
这样的生活，
我真的不想重蹈覆辙!我要面对的是我的未来。。
最算是一个人，
我相信我能接受。。

难道这世界的爱情都是虚幻的吗？
就这么理所当然被伤害？
我，想要告诉各位。
在你和另一半还没成为情侣的时候，
请必须确认是否真的能接受她/他一辈子？
是否真的有那么爱她/他？
是否已经心里全是她/他？
是否你已经放下所有决定的好好爱他/她？
是否能给他/她一个承诺能永远在他/她身边？

请不要再发现后才决定离开。。
受伤害，阴影是一个残酷的阶段。。

[珍惜你所拥有的，拥有你所珍惜的]
不管时间多长，你不珍惜到头来还是一场空，不是吗？

[有缘牵手，就别轻易放手]
如果你决定牵他/她的手九千万别那么轻易就离开。。

人，
不要总是到了最后才发现原来爱的不是身边的他/她
仔细想想。。对你们自己而言[爱情] [真爱]
是什么？
是否能同时爱上两个人？
照理论，其实不可能。。。
决定了，在选择好吗？
一心一意，付出那一段你觉得最珍惜的感情。。
一心一意，为他/她而付出，没有怨言。。
[爱]是不计较的。。

我曰 ：
人生并不是一场游戏，更不是一场梦。。
爱情不是理所当然，是一种挑战。。
快乐不是别人给与你，而是自己争取。。
幸福不会消失，只要你愿意守护着。。
请为自己的爱而负责任。。

``来自于我的文笔``



我`会在改变。。
一个人也没关系。。。
我只想好好的，快乐的。。
我暂时会离开爱情的圈子。。。
我，要好好的为自己而活。。
我知道。。我心里都有他的存在。。
我要让时间，眼泪把他带走伤痛。。


你让我回到一个人
没有你的另一个人

原来我，不是我
别叫我宝贝，别说爱我
我并不属于任何人
很抱歉。。

因为，现在的我什么也接受不到。。
心不想不公平。。
心想说：
[我，迷路了]



-完-

♥ perfect Livin ♥

this is all abt sunday~~^^♥
woohoo~~my family day...so long time i nvr wake up so long..haha
early in the morning,we wake up and prepare everythings..
thn we go for breakfast~hehe...
go ate bck kut teh~~yummy! super nice^^
i noe,tat is a great sunday ♥

1st of all..
after we finish ate breakfast..
go to our new house~
at sri sinar,bukit segambut~aman puri apartment
hehehe....
i gt take sum pic thr..but lazy to upload..
it is bcoz tat pic is frm my camera,so hard to upload here~
sorry lar~xD
thn we go ukur the weight...high....everything
and saw wad we gonna bought~
stay at thr for so long..very HOT ...dun have fan also..
yiiyerr....reli bek cek~~
thn me and my sis seat at outside..listen songs...
hahas....lucky i got bring my novel books..=)
by listening songs thn read novel..woohoo~
but very HOT lar wei~~~
no choice lur~~~inside wad also dun have even 1 paper also 'bo'~
hahaha....
thn bored till take alot ownself pic the..hehehe...
paiseh~~xp

still have a lot...
can have a look at my facebook xD

bla bla bla
*skip*

noon,
we going PWTC ...
thr have a fair....at dewan merdeka..
perfect livin♥
grate for us...bcoz we are going to have a look and..
wanted to bought alot things thr...

we spend RM5114 at thr to bought all
furniture♥

hahaha...
act,it's really lazy to wrote la..
i jz post up here only~~
walk the fair is alr use 9 hours..
waoo~~~so tired!!
walk till 10 oni go have our dinner....
wah....reli hungry~~~
full of tired too...

hahaha....

jz like this....
ciaoz♥

``stupid!~

mom! dun always said i got boyfriend can ornt!!!!
i really dun have now! no mood to get any relationship la!!!!
damn damn damn!
wad!!!!!! talking phone with my fren also fault?!
shit~~~!!!!!!!!!!!
wad i can do??? leave my phone? throw my phone?!!!
i cant chat with my friend??????!!!!!
tat's not means i cant chat with my friend!!!!
do u think tat oni is boy chat with me?!!!!!!!
always scold like dog~!!!!! damn!!!!
wad the hell ur brain is thinking!
sucks~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun always thinking the bad way can ornt?!

i dun think in relationship cant?!
dun talking with in always i will in a relationship can?!!!!!!
normally,girl also will called and chat with me 1 also lor~!
hate hate!!!! angry~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ wednesday ♥

[翡翠明珠]

today after sch i go watch this funny movie with ky♥
a funny movie..make me laugh non-stop ..hiak hiak hiak!
so funny eh~~
we goes to brem mall and watch this movie..
wow~so long time i nvr went go thr alr..
i remember tat , all the memory at brem mall with somebody~
hahaha! ther bcum alot of things and shop alr..
have a big big giant..gt sell sushi..hehe..=="

act,today i'm so tired...
i not really felt wanted go on today..
but,at last i still go><"
bcoz i want to watch movie..hehehee!
thx ky accompany ya~
i really felt so tired...today my class oni have 15 people to attend~
a bad bad bad news for me...
my sijil is gone~~bcoz last sat i didn't attend to sch~
so,she said cant get the sijil alr...alr batal~! wuwuwu~
even sick gt letter also no use liao ...=(
too bad~but,luckly tat's nt very important la..
cheerleader sijil only~='(
haiz...suan la suan la...

today,janice gt date me go have lunch at pizza hut..
but last min i also nvr go...
bcoz they also wont wait me..start eating la..
haih...since my bus come so late zzz...
izzit really so jam so nvr come to fetch me?
nvm..it's ok~

may i noe how a friendship means by?
i really sad of tat....
bcoz i'm nt the one who always easy to leave..
izzit i really nt important?
can told me wad means by truely friendship?
haih~~jz be silent~

[i don't like the way u said "aiya,for u normal alr la.."]
haih...full of sadness for me,do u noe? how hurt ehn u saying like this?
izzit i look like plying a person?!
whn i'm sad...u jz said " aiya...dunno u lah!"
wad means it? can told me? how u take care?
plz...dun think tat i'm the person is cincai la k!
people will sad...
people will get hurt....
do u thinking abt my feeling?wth~
i dunno wad can i said alr...
i jz hope i can take it easy~
not oni i wanted to change myself...do u chg urself too?
i dunno.....but i reli felt dissapointed whn u said i'm fake!=(

jz leave it *

today,
happy also....ky bought a chibimaruko books for me♥♥♥
huray!!!! so happy to saw tat....my lovely chibimaruko~♥
yiiha! hiak hiak hiak!

haih.....tired tired tired~!
but still wanna do my homework...
summore,
i tomolo late bck home..
bcoz i should attend my chinese class..=(
haih~no choice ><"

next~
i want watch 人间喜剧 & SALT
hahaha..jz duno whn i can watch it oni...
ohya!still gt STEP UP3 , PHUA CHU KANG,MANGA..
HAHAHA！
alot movie i want to watch xD

this few days,i start to watch anime alr..
♥梦色糕点师♥
this anime quite cawaii nerh~~
^^v

ohh!!! yay!
start puasa alr..hehe...
now,i bck time is 12.30pm finish sch~
hehehe...happy happy ♥


haih,
lazy to wrote much~
tat's all..i should go have a nap now...
haih~really felt so tired and sleeply~
ciaoz~

`` no energy =(``

act is nth to wrote abt today~hahaha...
i felt super gt energy in this morning...but afternoon
bcum so teruk liao..=(
less energy~felt so tired..ish ish!
but i cant slp at noon also ><"
i should attend my tuition at kepong kasturi~
i cant keep skip the date alr la...=(
janice told me she lost her money,so cant go tuition with me..
too bad~act,i thinking want to attend ornt der~
but i noe i cant bcoz of her to stop my tuition..
aihz...very bad...
thn this time i go by my ownself....
good! i can do it myself~very brave lar me..keke!
alone....take bus go... so sucks la tat tuition center~
noe why?ish ish?!
come!
let's see the chat:

[izzit today u coming for math?]
[ya,why?]
[sorry,today teacher didn't have class,she have emergency happen]
[really? omg! so how?]
[hmm...sorry..or u can attend other class?]
[har?wad class?]
[do you have ekonomi?]
[sorry,i don't]
[do you have chemistry?]
[sorry,i don't have it]
[haha...it's ok..ohya!later u still gt eng right?]
[ya,so am i nid to wait till eng lesson?means i nid to wait 1 hours?]
[hmm..yes,or u can choose other ways?]
[omg! 1 hours? whr should i go? if i choose to tomolo is diffrent teacher]
[so,how? maybe u can go shopping..after tat u come bck again?]
[har?!shopping? alone leh~haih]
[so,now u want how?]
[haih~no choice~see later whether i gt attend ornt la,
i really duno 1 hours wad should i do]
[hahaha~or u want to slp?]
**whn i look on the chair..all is full off sch bag thr =="**
[i think ....thr is very full alr..and alot student here,
haih~kla..i jz walk around..see later i'll come bck ornt la thx=)]
[okay..^^]

aihz~~how? u do think this very Irresponsible in this tuition..
very sucks~~haih!
but no choice~
the teacher is good =(
suan la...
after tat,i go jusco window shopping alone...
aihz...felt weird...so long time i nvr shop alone alr..
but,it was nice whn alone..act~
i keep sms +ing with max gor =)
thx for accompany~hehehe...
thn meet up shu wan thm at thr also..
but no together la...xD
den,i go popular read some books to fill in my time..
hahaha! very sweat~
after tat gor called me chat...accompany me in tat 1 hours~
hahaha!
i duno how long i walk around the jusco,but i noe..
so fast~the time reach alr..
thn i continue attend the class....
eng....the ppl saw me come bck...he felt so happy..den...

[eii~whr u go jz now?]
[i go popular for whole 1 hours xD]
[wao~very hardworking to study ^^]
[haha,yea...i jz go read come book to fill my time..haha]
[okay,so now going eng classes?]
[yea,thx Q^^]

haha...was fun whn talking with him..
but i still dun like their service~
too bad lerrrr!!!!
sucks la!!!
i think next time i should called 1st oni attend the tuition...=(
it's ok..nevermind...
i always told ownself like this..
this time i'm nt alone in the class..bcoz still gt shu wan and gillian thm..=)
i seat with thm..but nth can talk too..
i concentrate on my study~
but make me felt so sleepy~
luckly i didn't fall asleep~~wahaha!
finally,reach 6pm...i go counter to settle my arrange time table..
so,to bcum my tuition day oni have 2 oni~
grate~let me nt so tired ><" thn ...
woohoo! it's time return my sweet home^^
i was so happy! walao! very excited to saw him!
whn i'm turn my body! i saw him stand at thr,i tot i saw wrong people alr....x.x"
i cant believe~ang kang yew stand on my tuition downstair~
my good bro! ahahaha~
he said wanted accompany me bck home..
hahahaha!very thx Q~
thx for caring more...
i felt so happy whn i finish my tired tuition lesson..
still gt ppl will waiting me =)
i'm nt alone...hehehe...

haha! i remember tat jz now
whn alone walk at jusco,
i still thinking wanted alone go to watch movie tim~><"
i nvr try b4..i think sure i gt time to try it as well..keke!
jz dunno whn the class will both also cancel it oni.. wakaka!
haiz!the teacher always fong fei gei 1...><”
suan ba~~~ yiiyerrr!
so tired la.....
bus really hard to wait t.t
aihz...full of people also..but happy i still gt kwan yi accompany me wait bus xD
bcoz ky is bck alr...hehehe [he tot i go into bus alr]
ahaha!nvm~whn at the bus stop keep laugh~~
bcoz talk in funny with her^^
she is a quite nice person~hahaha! aihz~~

happy today bck home thn no nid cook xp
my daddy da bao for us ^^
yummy! fridge rice...thx dad <3

i still have alot of homework act!
but still stay at here type up my thgs~hehe...
notty lerh~~~kekeke!
felt so sleepy alr lar.... am i slp now? hiak hiak!
sure kena my gor piak 1..if i now lay on my bed..hehe
bcoz i noe whn i'm lay on the bed.. i will nvr wake up till tomolo morning alr..
yay!
tomolo wed~finish koko period liao^^
happy la....wakaka!
bcoz no nid 'run' jor lu...
gt discount movie tomolo...hiak hiak..

am i going watch movie tomolo?
hmm..i dun think so...
now,is not a time let me thinking abt tomolo..
i jz noe,my brain is less energy now><"
hahaha! aihz....
i think i really should go done it my homework now!
my mom is coming bck..
saw i still stay infront my comp..sure 'hut' me 9 9 ..
hehehe.... kla...to be continue on tomolo lor~~^.<

tata~~~
good night everyone
who attend my blogger =)

mwaks~*

i still missing u~
hard to foeget~
i jz keep the memory properly~

``emo+ing``

this post is abt yesterday~
me and ky kor go KLCC pc fair~
thx to accompany me walk thr ya~
hmm....i follow him to chg things...xD
i didn't buy anythings frm thr act~haha
i jz wanted go thr find my frenz~^^
good! i meet up with my fren thr too~
so happy they still remember me =)
hahahahaa~! this time pikom pc fair i no work..
but i hope next year pd fair i can have a job thr ^^
i like~bcoz it was so fun! hehe..
am i have a chance to get a show girl job?? hiak hiak~
start keep fit now xDD bluek~

i meet up with vivien jie~
happy~bcoz i quite miss her~
thn i date her to hv lunch~^^

me and him reach thr 1.30 i think~
we walk so long..act...walk till so tired~
and very bek cek la..alot ppl thr also..
hahahaha!
not syok also...zzz=="
but have a lot leng lui~a lot leng zai ...xixixi~~!!

not fun!
walk till 4 sumthings thn we come out~
i gt help leanard tai bought a canan printer ink thr~
RM65 ><"
hahaha! this is the oni things i buy~
hahaha! yiiyerr~~~no buy mouse~aihz..
next pc fair i sure wanted buy alr..
my mouse so suck alr...><" bek cek with it~
this is 2nd time i went to KLCC pc fair
quite sienz...
people mountain people sea~><"
tak boleh tahan la~~xDD

today,
monday wor....
syoknya~my sch today having 1 day holiday~
felt so happy..bcoz ytd shopping till so long and tired~
but today i can slept till so late..wakakaka!
i 1pm sumthg oni awake~
hahaha!reli happy...if everyday also can like this so nice..
piak! think too far ><"
pity ky get sick...
take good care of urself la..
like a big child still wanted people to worry u meh~
aihz~duno how was him alr..
felt so worry abt him tim...zzz~~~

bored in the afternoon~~
thinking sumthgs was make myself bcum so emo~
damn bored~
my hp still gt 'tik tik tik'~my msg~
max is sms with me..this few day~
my hp always gt alot msg~~wakakaka!
make me wont felt so sien...bcoz still gt ppl chat with me..=)
but,my money keep~~aihz..
i'll reload till i bankrap i think~~
hahahaha!
it's ok der~~~~~x.x"

my brain arrr....
dun keep thinking abt the ppl ady~
going to kill myself alr..
nt really so handsom alr!
why keep gt he face coming out frm my stupid brain~
it was a past for us la wei~
thinking wad jek~felt nt worth still wanted miss~
aihz...damn damn damn!
how can i forget? how i can run away for tat missing?
i quite miss him..
miss him deeply la..
but the person dun want me alr~
quite sad,even single life is greater thn in a relationship~
i'm always emo+ing
i dun like!bcoz i wanna make ownself to cheer up!
james told me...not worth to do tat~
not worth to keep thinking abt him~
jz take it easy,let it be~
but,hard to so fast to recover bck~
listen to sin huey said she will wait kayson so long..
very worth~
qiute sweet xD
maybe,i wont do it~
my heart is blind now...i cant accept any relation..
sorry to daniel law..i really cant~
i jz need time.....need time to rest~
i'm scare~~~

this time!
i'm awake in my life~
i jz wanted do it myself be more good...
smart......
i am a girl who say superwomen...xD

keep emo+ing~
sorry to my fren always worry abt me...
maybe my wallpost or pm wrote sumthings is emo..
i'm jz think oni~
he's no care alr....
chill~ling!


sienz~
jz stop it here~
plz!! take care urself properly~
ciaoz~

``immediately i'm bck``

i immediately recover bck my heart~

sumone said..buy a elephane glue for me to stik it~

hahaha..thx ^^

sumone is always by my side to cheering me always~

hehehehe..thxfull~

i remember tat how long i cried bcoz of you..

how many day i sad bcoz of you...

always make ownself very trouble..

to bother abt my relationship...i'm so stupid~

i always told others ppl this is not worth to let ownself sad so long..

but i noe..girls..is always girls...very emo~

easy to get sad~

sumone told me...i am khoo may ling!

always is the strong women in his list..

thx....he always be with my whn i'm sad..thx edison

u are the best friend in 11 years for me...

i remember tat day whn i'm sad,

how u let me happy bck....

thx sumone who scold me to wake up~called me dun have a life like shit!

and i get a promises frm him..

yea,i nvr broke my promises to u!

thx kayson to told me tat happen...he felt so lucky..bcoz i'm still alive..

u said u will always be with me...anytime...yes!i noe..

thx~

ky is always frm start to the end...who caring me..

who accompany me...

who always cheering me..

make my sad away~

the person who said...[dun sad,still got me]

yea, thx u lend me ur shoulder...

let me noe...korkor is the best~

thx janice~tat u told me

[dear is cant change~friend is always..u'll be with me always~]

thx my dear friend~

now,i noe...how many people are caring me..

how many friend is be with me..

how many people wanna me to wake up!

dun slp in my life..

all my buddies and my lovely family~

mayling is coming bck soon...

as long as this is not worth to me...

no more relationship in love...single life~

i felt the best way for me...

i get alot friend whn i'm alone...

and...be single....发现很多桃花运 hahaha~

but is time to rest in here~hahaha~~

rest in in a relationship~

now,

my handphone msg is alot~~~~

every moring recieve 10 msg..><"

hahahaa! so happy whn i saw it~~~xDD

yea,single life is free~~really free for me...

got a lot ppl date me.....but,so sorry..no money out xD

ytd,i going out with ky whn noon...

we go watch movie...thn go for bowling...it was fun!

but so sorry to let u sad..bcoz i asking a stupid happen frm u..

be with me like a child....quite cute ^^

thn night~

i go out with janice,a bee...have a small gathering at

manjalara gathering....

MO DE CAFE

...tat is a 1st time i drive at night~felt scare...

1st time visit desa oark city in the night~

nt bad^^

hahaha~~it was nice~

and whole day is headache...><"

eye still bengkak ><"

it's ok der~~~bcoz now i recover my fish eye jor...

so noob cried till like this =="

now,no more sadness...bcoz we still is friend^^

wont sad means so easy gv up~

bcoz i'm still missing you~

so how? i jz can let own dun think so much~

felt tat really not worth i can waiting him..

how long i can? i cant gv a date,but i noe...

we'r nt suitable...izzit?

maybe b fren good thn be couple..

1 is better thn 2 la..act`

if u wanna bck to find her....jz go it...

i wont care anymore....bcoz u'r nt the person i care...

i'll cry for the last,cry for everythings i felt normal to be with you

tat enough for me....

U'R NT WORTH AND NOT IMPORTANT!

hey~everyone...

am i wanted to cut my hair to bcum short?

i felt so bek cek my hair always kek sui~

alah! duno how....t.t

sien liao..alone at home also duno want to do wad..

sien laaaaa!!!!!!

aihz...duno tomolo will go pc fair ornt~

wanna find my fren thr xD..

aihz...see how 1st la...

and wait ky to comfirm with me...zzz

i wanna watch animation la..

but suck pps ><"

let me bek cek wanted to watch~

suck line also...stupid tm!!!

enough to wrote....

ciaoz~~

u'll nvr come bck again `baby`

finally,u'r FLY away frm me...
finally,i alr ask the question and i get the answer...
i really hope this is nt true! but..
the truth is...tat u leave me....
u told me the reason is
[i no love u ad,bcoz i still love my ex..]
whn i saw this msg frm u...i alr noe tat..
we will break in the night.....
i cant believe tat u really like this....
i cant believe tat the reason is tat!
u still love her,how abt me?
u noe how much of love i gave u?
how sad i'm now!

i hope u can gv me 1 more chance...
but i noe impassible alr...
baby,i very love u!
why u must treat me like this?
i cried in whole night....no sleep...
keep crying till this morning.....!
i no close my eye.....but eye tears keep droping out..
a lot of tissue i used~but i cant make the diffrent...
how much i hope can have a chance to chg wad...
but i noe.....wont alr.....
my feeling non-stop in bad! i hope i'm strong..but i'm nt!
u said i am a superwomen.....am i?
nope....i really nope....
i wish to get a msg frm u...now,u'r wont.....
i hope u still r my baby....but u'r nt....
i regrate ytd u asked u....
i regrate everythings...

1 more times...i get hurt again....
izzit i'm stupid?????
jz alone at here sad....how abt him?
he didn't care already.....
i really nid a shoulder....very need....
this time i really felt so disappointed in relationship...

my heart really so tired in everythings,
i love b4.... but everytime is hurt....
i dun want to cry....but i cried a lot~
again and again!!!!!!!!!!!!i hate cry!!!!
my mom also noe alr...i felt so sorry to her let her worry abt me..
i so sorry i nvr listen to her...
i so sorry bcoz.....

i trying to smile infront everyone...
i hope i can......even is fake....



[baby]
our 3 month 2 weeks 2 days end up here...
i duno how long i jz can recover bck my heart..
i duno how long i cried bcoz of u....
now,u make me broken in heart...
u make me down.....
saw bck all picture...all memory with u....
i remember tat day,whn i lay beside of u..
watching u sleep...tat time i alr noe..
u'r nt love me alr...but i lie myself...dun want to believe..
i cry whn u slp...u noe?
every night i cried bcoz of u....
every time i cried bcoz of u....
i really hope u can dun leave me...i wish....
but,u wont come bck alr....
u wont come bck alr...
u wont come bck alr...
u wont come bck alr...

i delete all the things with u...
but i'm nt delete the memory with u...
maybe be fren good thn in a relationship...
but i nt wish...
i dun want u to together bck with her~~~
i dun want!!!!!!
now,even i keep trying to safe this relation....
but i noe..............................i'm lost.......







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how long i called u...
u nvr come bck....





i love you~~
i really love you~~~

``不要我了吗？``

我说不出为什么我可以那么在意他，

而他总是那么冷淡地对待我。。

我尝试不去太在意。。尝试很体谅的和他在一起。。

可是，我却发现。。一天比一天还要冷淡。。

[不爱我了吗？]

我心中莫名出现这样的一句话。。

我回答不出，我也不敢去问。。

感觉，好久都没听你叫我 比~

好久都没受到信息里面写着 比~

你和我感觉变得好遥远，好遥远。。

远到变成了冷淡。。

信息很静，没话说。。

话题只是停留在 [你在干嘛]

[你在哪里]

为什么我们一定要变成这样？

我很想念当初的快乐。。是我霸道不理解你吗？

你变得很大男人主义~

宝贝，为什么总是在我最需要你的时候。。

你都不在？

为什么都是我找你在先？

我开始想太多，还以自己是不是不够好。。

怀疑着为什么会变得那么冷淡。。

我真的不想要你离开我。。

有时，我觉得很累。。

听见你的冷淡的声音像是吃了爱哭丸一样

噼里啪啦 哭得不停。。

感觉心狠痛~我从来都没想过我们都会变得那么冷淡。。

我们现在除了冷却了对方还惨留着什么？

我再也看不见你上线。。。

是否，是因为工作而变成这样？

现在，就算我不理你你会担心我吗？

有好几次我都很想告诉你，

[不要对我那么冷淡好吗？]

可是，我却提不起勇气问你。。。我还怕你觉得我很烦~

会变得更讨厌我。。

是这样吗？

我曾经问过别人

[有什么原因让男生对自己的女朋友那么冷淡？]

很多人说，因为不爱她了。。

因为觉得她很烦。。

因为想要离开他了。。

真的要这样吗？且，真的是这样吗？

当我收到别人这样对我说。。

我的心想是被东西刺了一刀。。

我努力的想要冷静。。

可是，好难。。。

看着别人都那么幸福。。而我呢？

你可以说

[我就是这样]

可是，有想过我吗？

宝贝，我真的很想念你。。真的很想念。。

我想拥抱你。。

我很害怕你不要我了。。。

我会害怕，有距离的我们你会爱上别人。。

我很努力的相信你，很努力的给自己不妨碍你的理由。。

很努力想要让你快乐。。

可是，我都很失败。。。

我很努力的希望你对我笑着一直叫我。。

但是，真的觉得我很失败！我做不到！

总是哭着哭着就睡着了。。

安慰着自己，其实你是很在乎我。。

会心疼我。。。。

现在，每次每次当我打给你的时候。。

你都好冷漠。。总是很有脾气的样子，很凶~

难道，你就这么愿意这样对待我吗？

我很怕听到你这样，真的。。。

谈恋爱是这样的？

我已经很宽恕，很迁就，很信任 了。。

我还能做什么？能让你在意我多一些。。

我是你的女朋友，不是你的情人。。

开始，没有安全感了。。。

我心很痛，很痛！

就算是哭了也没用。。。

我已经没有眼泪可以流了。。。

我变成选择假装不在乎，

可是当我想起你的时候我还是偷偷掉下眼泪。。

我不知道我会维持这样多久。。。

病了，少了你。。。我很辛苦。。

我得不到安慰，得不到关心。。

我在想，

如果我真的病得严重你是不是就会好好的陪着我。。

我很坚持你会抽时间陪陪我，

就算是你有多忙碌。。

自我安慰你会为我牺牲一点睡眠时间。。

你真的很忙，对吧？

觉得很没一次都很累。。很累。。。

抽不出时间，回到家还是很累。。

我很不舍得再要求你能陪我。。。

宝贝，

你要知道我都在等你开心的找我哦~

不要把我忘记，好吗？

我已经很努力逗你开心了。。

可是，真的好难哦

。。呵呵。。

没见到你，很失落。。

看见你，很心疼。。

你已经变了。。当初不是这样。。。

跟我在一起很有压力，对吧？我很抱歉。。。

一直都很想说对不起

虽然我没做错什么，可是还是很想说对不起！

想回和你在云顶旅行的那次。。

觉得自己爱你。。。

感觉很幸福。。。开始幸福开始越来越远。。

在你身上争取不到。。。

[你还爱我吗？]

我很想这样问你。。。

顿时，很不开心的痛。。一直留在心底。。

我不要跟你吵架。。我不要跟你改变什么，

我深怕我问了以后得到不要的回答。。

接着，你就会我离我而去`。。。

我尝试过，我不想再试了。。。

我的爱情

总是有很多的瑕疵。。。

拥有很美好的记忆，可是却很短暂。。

我们还能维持多久？

我还能待在你身边多久？

宝贝，要记得_我爱你哦~

我等你找我。。。

``MYFM 台庆``

关于上个星期六，真的是超爽的咯！
i act so lazy to post up la hehe...
better go my facebook have a look^^
hmm....
best in tat concert~^^
hope next time will go again~
this time i go with my sister and bingo..
hahaha..thx him accompany me also ^^

thx for jacky and miko~
haha...so high enjoy the show with thm..
damn syok!
this is 1st time i felt so high and tired after tat~
we gt took alot pic thr ^^

the phoebe shirt so nice~
pink colour~=)
haha! so happy to see tat we'r wearing the same fans shirt~
haha!
act,i also support phoebe ^^
jiayou!

tat night...
i so happy i can go..b4 tat i really tot tat i cant go alr..
but finally my dad is coming fetch us after the show~
i felt so happy^^
everythings is gratez!
i saw xiao gui at genting time square~
walao!so handsom!
hahahaa!nearly saw him...this is the 1st time..
very best! i very regrate why tat day i didn't buy the books
gv him to sign~
aihz.......

in the concert~so happy i can saw and listen yun jing sing!
she is my super idol!
whn she come out!
i felt so high!!! bcoz i'm her fans!^^

all i alr post it at facebook alr..
have a look thr ba~~~
lazy to wrote~~
ciao~