对于今天，情绪并非那么好。。
早上，忽然真的脾气变得特别烦躁。。
到了学校，独自就一直在绞痛着~
她[janice]又骗我了！没来学校~~伤心啦~~='(
在学校的日子总是特别累。。累在哪里？
我不知道。。。
好不容易的挨到放学了。。
特别的今日，学校有操步比赛所以老师都没进班。。
而且。今天的几节课都很空闲~
我带了本小说去看。。大致上的时间都在追看小说~
赫赫！！！ xD

最后终于，放学了。。
看到全部人都一一涌到校门外~哈哈！！
我依然未停下手上的小说继续追看着。。。太好看的！
更本不离手耶。。
回到家，煮了碗快熟面吃。。就继续追书~赫赫~
第一次不离手的追看着~~没办法，很紧张的一刻！
然后，忽然~~~~
[oww oww oww~~~you noe you love me.........]
电话响了~~看着打电话来的显示，很不可思议竟然是-陈莹莹小姐
哇！我真的还以为看错了！
我二话不说接起了电话。。听到了她伤心的语气~
顿时就知道发生了什么事。。很心疼的感觉。。
[铃，你在做么？]
[看书咯。做么？]
[要出去吗？]
[去哪里？]
[去金河咯。。要吗？]
[嗯~你不开心？吵架了？]
[嗯~陪我去，好吗？]
[好。]
[那你赶快去冲凉吧~]
说完挂上了电话。。我知道只有他们吵架的时候她才会找我。。
听见她伤心地声音无法拒绝她的邀约，那么久了。。
很难得她会约我，但是。。却是令有其因。。
我并没想那么多，冲去梳洗！只用了半个钟~
我也不管身上有多少的现金，时间是几迟。。我只记得她还在等我安慰~
我无法忍心撇下她一个人伤心。。因为她永远是我最重视，在乎的朋友！
可能她都不会理我，但是我就是没办法对她发脾气。。
那么多年了，她都一直是最好的姐妹，最好的知心。。
可是，有谁会知道就因为`[男朋友]`却忍心把我抛下~很心痛！
因为我从未想过有这么的一天~
但是，对我而言。。。

``我，不是想象中的那么坚强``

你知道我在等你吗？
你知道我真的很想你吗？
难道，现在这个时间你还在忙？
虽然，我不知道你在忙什么。。。
但是，我还在等你与我联络。。

不要把我忘了，好吗？
宝贝
我不想打扰你，因为你总是忙昏了。。
累了，睡了，容易发脾气。。
自从你借了这份工作后，几乎都这样变化。。
你很大男人主义~
我很不喜欢这样的你。。。
我忍耐，因为我知道你很累了。。
所以，我并不打算找你让你觉得我很烦。。
可能，你不会是听到女朋友的声音就能让自己减少压力的那一类型。。
所以，我决定让你想到我的时候。。
才来找我。。。
但是，我的结论是。。
你已经忙得把我忘了。。
现在是八时三十七分。。
第一次，那么夜了你都没找我。。
放工了吗？吃饱了吗？再干嘛？
这些简讯，已经消失了。。。
慢慢的冷却我信箱里的他。。去了哪里？
我喜欢看他会自动发简讯给我。。
我喜欢听见他开心的叫我比~
我喜欢他那开心的样子。。可是。。。却遥不可及。。
能改变什么吗？
难道，你就这样累得把我忘了？
还是，另有其因呢？
难道，我并没有让你感觉好一些吗？
我是你的负担吗？
可能，你累了。。不会找我了。。更不会看我的部落格了。。
但，我还是希望。。
如果你看到了。。给我一个安心的交待好吗？
能让我对你的信任更深吗？
自己很爱想太多，总是把事情搞砸。。

宝贝，你到底去了哪里？
我哭泣，因为我真的很想念你`
我哭泣，因为我真的很在乎你。。
眼看九点就快到了。。
我想，你不理我了吧~~

今天`我在班上，独自坐着。。
并不舒缓的心情，
并不蔚蓝的天空。
最后，我哭了！我真的哭了！
我偷偷的掉下了眼泪。。
我告诉自己[我不能那么依赖你]
轻轻的在我纸上画下了句号。
我心疼，因为你都不需要我。。
想念，是如此辛苦。。
拥抱不了你的温暖，
得不到你的安慰。
我彻底败给自己坚强的心！
朋友们，我已不再是最坚强的美铃了！
因为，就算是自己是多么的逞强，我还是会变得软落。。
因为，我是一位希望被关心的女人~

第一次，就这样莫名的流下心疼的眼泪，
是为你而流。。
好久都没有这样连续哭了好几天。。
可是，你却不在我身边。。
用上心痛的冷淡。。。
情侣都这样吗？

你可以感觉有多难受吗？
你有爱我吗？真的有吗？
别人说，如果有爱的人就会被在意。。
而我呢？

我把这些秘密都隐藏了。。
把所有都写下，心情却变得更糟。。
你不见了！你真的不见了！
我像个傻瓜坐在电脑前无力的不停的打着键盘。。
眼泪直流个不停！
我想个傻瓜坐在电脑前不停的哭泣。。
只因为你。。

宝贝，我真的真的好想念你！


我

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_病了_



你到底，在哪里？

``爱上你``

宝贝，我只想要你好好的爱我~可以吗？
有人说，他并没那么爱你。。
我不知道是否是这样，但是。。
我选择相信我们的感情。。。
可以改善的爱情。。。。。
我不知道将来会如何。。。
不过，我爱你！宝贝。。。。

好想念你！好想念你。。

那天，我依然看着正在睡觉的你。。
静静的，合着眼。。
忽然觉得，很心疼。。。
我发觉，可能你真的有那么累吧~
我心痛，因为我发现。。我不谅解你。。。
我心痛，因为我不认识这样的你。。。
原谅我的任性，好吗？

忽然就有很深的心酸感觉，
不知道为什么就是这样。。。
昨天，我们俩都没多说什么。。感觉，好像改变了。。
你的温柔，你的脾气。。开始慢慢的了解了一样。。
贝，你是真的爱我吗?
很抱歉我会怀疑这样的感情。。。因为，我并没有安全感。。
总是觉得，你好像就快离我而去一样。。
所以，我害怕。。也可能，我能了解你为什么前女友那么不相信你。。
但是，我不是不相信你。。
三个月，就这样越过时间。。。
开始害怕你真的哪天会离开我。。。
和你，像是有距离一样。。有一个程度跃不过去。。
我一直想起你说的
[沟通问题]，[有时觉得我很烦]，[跟我说话会很累]
我会回问自己
[难道跟我在一起也很累吗？]
真的有那么失败吗？

近来，听了朋友说了好多我的缺点。。
原来那是他们眼中的我。。。
我真的是这样吗？
可能，我真的变了吧~~~
听了这么多的缺点，可能作为你的女友。。
也会感到一丝失败。。。。

宝贝，我会很是失败吗？

我看着别人的甜蜜，
就算别人吵吵架也都会变得那么甜蜜。。
偶尔，我也会很羡慕。。因为，在你身上找不到你对我的体谅。。
很抱歉，我说了那么多的不是。。。
我只是希望能改变些什么。。。
可能，你没想像中的爱我。。
那天，吵架了后我们都没多说什么。。。
我真的第一次觉得很心痛。。为什么会变成那样。。
我迁就你所要的。。。
可能，我只能这样了吧。。。


最后，我还是不知道还能改变些什么。。。
我只能说，宝贝，我真的好爱你！
却不知道为什么。。即使别人认为是多么的不值得。。
我仍然相信你会为我而改变什么。。
因为，我正努力的让你觉得你真的爱我。。

i choose to trust,
tat i love......
is you...
baby~

CRY AGAIN!

I DUNNO U ONI WILL ACCOMPANY ME..
SET ME IMPORTANT THN YOU SLP IN UR LIFE!
I ALWAYS WAIT YOU TILL U WAKE UP..
BUT YOU ALWAYS FORGOT ME!
WT****! I ANGRY! I HATE YOU LIKE THIS!
CAN GV ME MORE TIME?! SINCE U NO WORK TODAY!
OTHER PPL ALSO WILL FIND A TIME FOR OWN LOVER , HOW ABT YOU?!
U WAIT YOU SO LONG ALR!
HOW COME ALWAYS PICK UP UR CALL OR RECEIVE UR MSG IS ALL ABT
TIRED! GOING SLP!!
U NOE I AM A GIRL?!!!!!!!!!

IF YOU LIKE TO SLP~!
JZ GO...SLP FOREVER! U ALSO NO NEED ME!
DUN CALL ME ACCOMAPANY YOU NEXT TIME!
CAN YOU CARE MORE WAD I NEED?
CAN YOU CARE MORE WAD I WANTED?
A LITTLE THINGS ALSO HARD TO WANT YOU TO DO TO ME!
I NVR SEE A PERSON LIKE YOU TREAT A GF LIKE THIS!
I CAN CONTROL ALL MY EMO!BUT NOW!I CANT!
BCOZ I CARE ALL OF YOU!
WAD U DONE TO ME?!
I NVR FELT TAT YOU LOVE AND CARING ME!
WAD CAN I DO?
NOW,I CAN HEAR UR SOUND I ALR SO HAPPY!
HOW ABT YOU?!!!!!!
U CAN FORGOT! U CAN NOT CARE!
EVEN MY MOOD IS BAD BCOZ OF YOU!
EVEN I ARGUE WITH YOU!
EVERYTHINGS U NT CARE IZZIT?!
I DUN WANT TO LET YOU GO TO BED BCOZ I WANTED YOU ACOMPANY ME
LONG TIME A BIT...
I WANTED TO HEAR YOU..CAN I?
I AM UR GF NOW,BUT WHY I FELT SO DISAPPOINTED AFTER U SAID WANNA SLP!
BCOZ I WAIT YOU....
EVERYONE SURE GT LIMIT!
NO 1 TIMES U SAID U VERY JING SHEN! ALWAYS SAID SO SLEEPY..
WHN GOING OUT WITH ME ALSO!
IZZIT HARD TO YOU?!
NO PPL WILL ANGRY BCOZ OF THESE?!
DAMN DAMN DAMN~
I TRY TO MAKE OWNSELF HAPPY INFRONT OF YOU..
BUT U.....

I DUNO HOW I CAN ANSWER....
WATCHING EVERYONE SO SWEET WITH THEIR BF/GF..
HOW ABT ME?
WAD FEELING I HAVE? I REALLY FELT ALONE HERE!
WHO CAN TOLD ME ....
WHICH COUPLE LIKE US EVEN IN CALLED ALSO NTH CAN TALK?
I'M SAD! I'M SAD!
FINALLY, I CRIED AGAIN BCOZ OF YOU!
NON-STOP! NON-STOP!

EVERYTHINGS IS MY FAULT!
FAULT IN I CERIED A PERSON WHO DUN CARE I ANGRY
FAULT IN I ARGUE BCOZ I DUN WANT U SLP NOW
FAULT IN I SELFISH! BCOZ I AM NOOB!
EVERYTHINGS MY FAULT!NT U!
VERY EMO!
VERY STUPID!
I DUNNO WAD CAN I DO WHN ALL IS FAULT!
I DUNNO WAD CAN I DO WHN U TREAT ME LIKE THIS!
A WISH BY A WISH IS BROKEN!
I DIE IN MYLIFE~I'M LOSE~
U CAN LEAVE ME MAKE ME FELT I'M ALONE...
CAN U TOLD ME,WAD U WANT?
CAN U TOLD ME,WHY I SAD?
CAN U TOLD ME,WHO I AM IN UR MIND?
I'M LOST IN UR HEART!!

CAN YOU TOLD ME,WHY I LOVE YOU?
CAN YOU TOLD ME,DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME?
CAN YOU TOLD ME,WHY I CARE YOU?
CAN YOU YOLD ME,Y YOU CAN FORGOT ME!

I DUNO HOW TO TOLD YOU WAD IS MY FEELING!
I DUNO HOW TO TOLD YOU WAD I NEEDED!
NO COMMENT!
I JZ CAN DO WADEVER YOU PLAN,WADEVER YOU WANT!
NO PPL WANTED!!!!
FULL OF SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE MYSELF !
MAKE A LOT OF NOOB THINGS MAKE BOTH OF US IN BAD!
HOW I CAN DUN WANT THINK ABT YOU?
HOW LONG I WANT TO CRY BCOZ OF YOU?
HOW MANY TIME I WANT TO CRY BCOZ OF YOU?
SO HARD TO STOP!
ALWAYS ARGUE,
ALWAYS CARE,
ALWAYS MY FAULT,
ALWAYS CRY!


I'M NT A PERSON U SAID IMPORTANT!
I NOE....

``sadness``

now,so late alr...going to 12 o'clock~
i'm so sleepy~so tired for today~
whole day i nt at home also..till jz now i oni bck home...
and jz finish take bath and take a rest~
for today,act my mood is nt really good!
bcoz of sumthings happen...make me felt so disappointed and fully of sadness~
abt the concert 31 july~ my bf cant go with me alr...
he said he dun like~i think even he have time also nt to choose go with me la..
yea,the reason make me sad..bcoz you dun like tat kind of place~
can i ask a question? why u cant be the ppl who sacrifice?
why sumthings i like...but you don't!
can accompany? can try to gv me more happiness?
i really cant feel anythings u care~too bad~
i try to believe tat u will go with me on ytd night till this morning..
whn i hear you said u will think abt it..i really felt so happy,
but i noe u'r wont! aihz...i duno even tat day u free or busy~
baby,u noe 1 thgs?
i'm ur girlfriend...i also need a care and a accompany time..
should i have? nope....
this is the 1st time hear you said look like so LC said tat
[i dun want go bcoz i dun like,you go ur ownself la]
wad! i really hope i cant hear~=="
this is the 1st time i felt so disappointed with you..full of sadness...
so,i cried again and again bcoz of you!
how come i'll easily cried bcoz of you?!
i start felt so tired....i also duno why~
how come you can so easily to forgot me~aihz...
whn today i finish sch,i called you...but u talk so LC...
i really dun like!xS

today,wad a day~
i hate kepong kasturi! is bad~service also noob thn others centre~
today is the qst time go tuitioon....
and i today drive go to sch also..hehehe!
this time better thn fast monyh
month*

after we finish tuition...
we go kepong jusco OLD TOWN drink cha~ok lohh~~><"
thn night,whn i finish cook thn go sch wang~
hahaha!she sure cant 1 loh~

aiya~if can jz told me....sad...haha!


lazy lasy lazy larh!!!!!
and tired till crazy now!
i jz top here...

to be continue...

``hopefully broken``

hopefully i wanted go MYFM bday concert~
wishes wanted to go...
but no one can gv me a confirm...
and a lot of bad news~~i reli cant believe no ppl wanna go with me..
i'm sad.....really sad...
mood so bad....
even my bf also dun want to go with me..
bcoz he dun like! i really felt so dissapointed la~

now, i have 5 ticket ..
but no one wanna go with me, jz gt my sister oni~
fully sadness...
i really felt so bad now....
but nvm! thx my kor~
is him gv me ticket and said wanna fetch me go..
stay with him and his fren,
thn bck with him~~woohoo!
jz nt so sok oni~
baby still thnking...but look like so mian qiang go a place he dun like~
i think wad i also cant do~
i jz can wait...bt he reli is the 1st person tat i can hope...
if he also cant...i end ask thm...
i go with thm~=(

act,i really hope go with my baby....
whn he told me he dun want and dun like..
i really sad~~





sad~

♥ a moment like this lyric♥

sing by leona lewis

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me, would you agree?
Its almost that feeling that we've met before so tell me
that you dont think Im crazy when I tell you love has come
here and now.

A moment like this.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
For a moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I cant believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

Everything changes, but beauty remains.
Something so tender I cant explain.
Well I may be dreaming but til I awake..Can we make the
dream last forever?
And I'll cherish all the love that we share. A moment like this.

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
For a moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I cant believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

Could this be the greatest love of all.
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall.
So let me tell you this.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this...

A moment like this.
Some people search forever for that one special kiss.
I cant believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

A moment like this. For that one special kiss.
I can't believe its happening to me.
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.
A moment like this

♥ my valentine ♥

SING by Martina McBride

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldnt love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

La da da
Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine

You're all i need
My love, my valentine

♥ i'll never let you go ♥

a moment like this ♥ leona lewis
suddenly,i found a songs...so sweet~
i love it so much!
act i found it on other ppl blog~hehe...
normally,a lot ppl put it whn marry~
it was so nice and best!♥♥♥

学校生活，
可能对我而言并不完善。。
但是，作为一位学生。。
责任就是要把书读好。。
预考快到了，
感觉开始害怕，我务必把书读好。。
面对全部的考试。。
还有几个月我就离开学校了，
在这社会，责任，烦恼，繁忙。。
当然比学校要的压力还要重！
但是，我们身为这社会的一分子。。我们没得选择。。
我们只能选择努力！

对我而言，面对的压力越高 挑战 与成就感 就越高~
我喜欢很有成就感的感觉。。
但是，我却重来没想过。。
哪天我真的踏入了这社会，成为了上班族。。
我会是如何？
我知道 every things is change!
this is the way i can said~
but, i'll try my best to solve and handle all the problem..
wanted to be more mature in this world..
i'm nt a child....nt a kids cant do anythings make ppl easy forgive..
life is hard~
so, need more hardworking...
now, i started thinking wad should i do after end of sch life..
work? or continue study?
i dunno~bcoz i dun have any answer for ownself...
in 2010 this year,
i saw a lot ppl are going study in collage..
busy on their assignment..
busy on their collage study life~
it was so fun! i like collage life~but..
am i gt this chance?
i gt think wanna go outstation learn things..
seems like make up course ,hairstylist and so on~
i wanna go taiwan...after i went to education fair on last friday xD
it was nice! and grate!
but, no money and no chance~
am i thinking too far? yea,i'm~

是否，我们能选择我们的生活方式？
是否，我们能改变我们的生活方式？
我们，可以！
现实的世界，让所有人都好累。。
现实的世界。让所有人那么的有压力。。
责任真的好重！
曾经有想过，以后会如何吗？


♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

感情方面，
对我，可能我选择放在最重要的位置。。
我总是容易受伤，容易忍耐。。
因为我很在乎。。。
不管对方是谁，只要是我最爱的他。。
永远都不会想要离开。。除非有必不得已的理由。。
对我而言，只要一天他是我的最爱。。
我都会紧紧的守护，相信~
我对爱情的重要性，我相信。。认识我的人都清楚。。
也很了解！可能，我重色轻友的人。。
我承认！谁不是呢？我的他，不是。。
我能了解。。。。
各有各的不同。。
我爱他，那就够了。。。
3 month anniversary on today
so happy,i can keep it till 3 month~
hahaha..
past a time! it was so slow to reach 3 month for us~
act,really look like our relationship so long alr..
but it jz ONLY 3 month~
time going slowly slowly and slowly i think ><" i was remember tat i noe him is whn the 1st pc fair at KLCC in our booth "ACER" work on last day~ i'll never forgot...^^ so lucky i found you thr baby♥ i always said to him "thx acer ^^♥, bcoz let me noe you" nice? ahaha! the best things in this year is let me noe you... truly love you all the time... whn be with you,felt so happiness... but u so bad, always bully me xD thinking the moment with you... leave argue & sad time...it's really make me felt so warm. ♥ to hug you ♥
♥ to kiss you ♥


i stay in love..♥
i'll never let you go..♥
i cant live without you..♥
i wanted a moment sweet like this..♥
nothings gonna change my love for you..♥
always be my baby..♥
i wanted you..♥
my valantine..♥
♥``baby``♥

i dunno how i can wrote how much i love you
i dunno how i can told you how much i need you..
but the important is...
i dun want leave you all the time~
so,i'm so happiness i found you in my life baby♥

我把所有的爱都给你。。
放完全部全部。。。我已经变得不想离开你。。
深深的感情印在心里。。
深深的爱留给你。。
你的每一个动作，你的每一个样子。。
让我觉得好幸福。。
我害怕你生气，我害怕你那么凶
总是忽然因为害怕而流泪，
因为我不希望吵架。。
我喜欢看你心疼我，
我喜欢看你疼爱我，
我喜欢看你关心我。
但是，我不希望你总是把我撇下。。
我总是等待你会因为我放下你的重要睡眠 =D
我从不会怀疑你对我不忠。。虽然我知道你很喜欢看美女。。
眼睛不离线的看着。。
虽然我会吃醋，会羡慕。。至少你的心里还有我。。
可能，我还会羡慕别的情侣。。
但是，我也正在努力寻找那样的甜蜜。。
不知道何时我会开始想要管你的时间一些，
但是我知道没办法，因为你喜欢自由！
你很特别，真的很特别。。
你可以很放心的让我自由。。
而我呢？因为选择相信所以也是吧。。
在遥远的距离，心心相印不就好了吗？
可能，
我不是一位浪漫的女孩，
我不是一位体贴的女孩，
我不是一个什么都为男朋友照相的女孩，
我不是一位斯文的女孩，
我不是一位惹人疼爱的女孩，
更不是很漂亮的女孩。

但是，我会努力改变！
亦或许，你就是喜欢现在的我。。
爱上你，成为我最幸福的事。。
选择你，成为永远的快乐。。
我想要感动你，
我想要让你更爱我。。
那么，请问宝贝。。看了这么一篇幸福满满的宣言，
我感动你了吗？
有更爱我了吗？

在一起91天的我们，
3个月的我们，对你来说在这3个月里~
有什么留言？
可能你并非那么最爱我，
可能在你深深的心底你还是留着她~
我也只是猜测而已，我不是到对你而言我是个怎样的女孩。。
但是，选择了我没办法选择离开哦。。
我自私的只想要把你永远帮在我心中，
留在我身边。。。
不想要你离开。。。
每一次为你流的眼泪，
我都觉得很自责，因为我很失败。。
即时我知道你有多不喜欢我哭泣。。
记得听到你说你会心疼。。我真的觉得很欣慰~
因为，我从来没听你说过温柔，体贴关心和甜言蜜语。。
但是，一旦听到一些话我真的觉得。。
[有你这一句就够了！真的。。]

你是我的心肝宝贝，
因为你 我变得如此幸福。。
因为你 我变得如此开心。。

aishiteru♥
sharanghae♥
tiamo♥
na ni katerikileh♥
saya cinta pada mu♥
i love you♥
我爱你♥


i wanna be with you♥baby
-always-

3 month anniversary♥
continue to be forever love♥
lai leong kam! u'r mine...i'm yours♥

i'll never let you go♥

♥ a sweet day with baby ♥

today,i'm so happy~
after finish sch so rush bck home and done everything
thn oni go out meet up with baby~
hahaha!
today,i felt so tired err....
duno why also..maybe today is monday xDD
but whn i meet up with my baby jor...no tired liao~~
wakakaka!
but my baby jz wake also very rush~
ahaha! whn i saw him...his eye gt gum..haha!
hmm....
today we go pak toh~hiak hiak~
erm....1st of all...
we went to time square~
movie time not suitable to watch so cancel lur~
after tat,
we go have our lunch at [BBQ PLAZA]~
hmm...taste nt bad lar~xD
eat a lot also...haha..
this is the 1st time go BBQ plaza with my baby oo~
after ate,we took some picture~but~~
my baby was look so sleepy~=="
za dou lar~jz finish eat full~den look wanna oioi liao~
huiyo~beh tahan lar~pig baby

after ate thn walk around thr~
shopping shopping and shopping~
act time square is nth can shop~
hahaha~no money~shopping sure nt nice lor...
this is for girls la..xDD
den,with baby go sungei wang find his comic book~
i also found my books--killer by giddens~
i really wanna bought it..but~sad~
no money can bought lar~
aihz.......but sure gt chance i can bought it go home..xDD
so itchy lar my hand,but nid to control err~~~><"

aihz~at sch gt a lot homework err~
aihz~think also sien liao~
later still wanna very 'bok ming' to finish it!
gambateh!!!!!!

today is a nice day with baby ♥

stop here lur~
tat's all~~take care ^^
ciaoz~

``sunday``

today, sunday~
haha~ noon....
me , my sis and my mom went to see our new house~
haha~
my mom gv me drive xD
but she keep scold me alr~
adui~drive menual suddenly chg to auto~
gt a bit feel weird~~
haha! auto really so easy lor~
but hard to control~
maybe no clak inside~hahaha!xDD
i fetch my mom and sis go my dad"s shop~
so stressfull ...xp
my mom scold~~~><" make me gan zhong~!
but finally also reach~
thn we went to saw our new house~
mom said:'look like police house"
haha! really gt a bit look like police station ><"
funny lar! haha!
inside so small errr~~=(
but nt bad lar~~hahaha!

tonight, we bought a lot light~
hahaha!
nice also....
hahahaha!
after tat we go sri gombak having out dinner thr~
wad a day? normal and slpy day~
hahaha!
sei lor~i nt yt done my drawing....
batik ><"
tomolo nid to pass up jor~but i nt yt finish lar~
how come so cham der~~~
a lot~~

suan la!
woohoo! so happy~
my baby date me tomolo meet up tim~hehe!
i miss him a lot x)
yay!!! yiipeee!! xDD


bad things izzit coming?
my eye keep "jum"
眼皮跳 oo!~~
sad la me...i dun like it~ go away lar!!!! x.x"

so tired....
haih~duno why always drive jor feel so tired 1..
lazy wrote alr~
jz like this la...
tat's all

ciaoz~

baby,i miss you deeply~

hehehe....waiting tomolo~

``SATURDAY``

hehe..saturday~
i go dating with dear janice x)
yiipeeee~we go time square sing k~xDD
early morning i prepare thn go mutiara take car frm jun han..
this is the 1st time i drive to go ts~
woohoo~~
gratez~
we go sing k at ts neway~
RM67.++ walao~so exp lor~~
haih~~no choice la...haha..
we so long nvr go sing k jor~
i drink kampai till face red red er...
mouth also gt booze~hahaha! i also duno why~=="
after 4 we finish sing k and shopping thr a while...
haha...shop till forget the time alr..
almost 6.30 we go bck lor~
walao...so jam ><"
so i choose frm highway bck...
`MRR2`
so far~frm ts wanna go batu caves~><"
but thr no jam mah~~hahaha!

so far~~drive till so tired ar~~~
i wanted frm ts frive to go kepong ><"
after tat jun han oni fetch me bck~
haih~~~tat day i super tired lar!!!sleeply also...
this is the 1st time i drive go ts and bck frm ts to batu caves~
so far ><" nice try lar actually~haha!
but for me,drive is nt easy also..
use a lot energy also..tired 9 9!
hahahaha!

lazy wrote abt sat alr~~
so i skip here~
hahaha!
this is all abt saturday~~~

to be continue~

``FRIDAY``

this is all abt friday~
after sch we went to education fair with schmate~
all chinese student...
going taiwan education fair~
wow~alot ppl thr....
a lot taiwan student promote their collage~~

so nice! but i think i no chance can go...
taiwan!
i wanted go! but no money =(
haih~~~
friday,gt a lot things happen ..hard to told how the happen is..
zzz....
haih!

*skip*

night, janice date me go pasar malam...
but till so late his bf also nt yt finish work...
so cancel this date chg to yamcha&eat supper at night~
alomost 11 i oni go out~
we go kepong have our "dinner" and go 甜品哥哥 eat disert~
it was very nice!
hahaha!
act my mood is down on tat day~
but after meet with janice~
will better more leh~hahaha!
this is all abt friday things~
ciaoz~

♥ happiness ♥

today,is a memorable day~
i drive also...
act i jz let's pic talking xDD
let's see:-
1st of all...today whn janice was fetching me..
accident hit the pole near her house..
so sad to saw this..flat alr...
hit till the sensor also sot sot alr..
jz a bit thn "bit bit bit"
whn hit alr..make me feel so scary lar...
janice nt concentrate to drive....so will hit the pole thr..
she feel so bad whn after this happen..
and wad happen on morning~
aihz..no luck with this car also...
summore,this is a new car of his bf 1...
[ELITE VIVA]
manual der nerh~~~

izzit very Seriousness with this car?haih~~

Narcissism pic here...
while waiting janice repair her laptop..at batu 5..:-

felt so bored..i alr wait half an hours..
so i stay in the car,take a lot pic and listen sum songs~xDD


this is we go OLD TOWN lim teh~xDD
her laptop -- TOSHIBA

janice ying

maylyn khoo [me]

ice-lemon tea

breakfast~=) yummy!!

at janice house~=)

lazy to talk so much..
abt today is a nice day for me ^^
fully happiness with her-dear janice ying..

since yesterday night...
mum are going check stok till next day..
haha! i date janice yamcha xP
tat time,i really unhappy...so,i date her..and miss her too.xixi
thn,like 10pm++ she and her bf come my house fetch me..
we go [MO DE CAFE]
wad a nice cafe thr...so leng~2nd time go alr..^^v

we ate sumthings thr...
drink sumthings thr...haha!
felt bored alr...act we plan to go sing k in the night..
non-stop chatting in the car..
but while chatting thn chg place to go small genting alr~
at cheras~xDD
very very nice! tat is my 1st time go..^^
let's see:-

janice boyfriend

the landscape at small genting x)
izzit very nice ? =)
hahaha!hope next time i can go with my beii~
hehehe....
this is a place nice to go pak toh 1 xDD


nerh~~this is my new bag,i bought at monday~

only RM30...nice~!!



today,i gt go find my dear baby boy~
wangsa maju seksyen 1 =)
so happy finally i can meet up with him..
act,we plan to go shopping and watch movie..
but time is late and raining er..too bad lar~
but i still gt go find him...
i miss him badly in all the time i need~mwaks!
fully hangfok today..happiness lar me~~wakaka~
baby, do you felt happiness too?xixixi~
lazy wrote alot in this post..xDD
tired la...i really felt so tired now!!!

baby baby~~~
start miss you le lar~~
sei loh...tbt lerh!!! X.X"
hmm...abt car...the pity place is need to take it go hospital~
haih...janice and sent it to do bck..
hahaha!
exp lar~~~><"


ahhhh~~~feel so happy today~
but think bck tomolo nid to go sch..alr felt so sienz jor~~><"
ish ish ish~!
suan ba~still gt janice accompany me ^^v
ahaih~jz like this ba~tired liaw~
no more energy blog here~
ohya!
now i drive alr ok liao loh xDD so happy err~
ok la
it's time to go bed lar~~
good night!mwaks!
ciaoz~~~

♥ 难受 ♥

命运该如何掌控？距离又能如何拉近？
我不清楚，我很想知道能不能把所有事情都变得很简单。。
当一个人的时候，我可以想很多事情。。
一直在我脑海里转呀转~不停的问自己，是否曾经的伤害能消失？
好不舒服。。。
今天，当我一个人坐在巴士站。。无人的位置。。
太阳很猛，晒得我皮肤刺痛。。
一辆辆的轿车从我面前快速驶过，
热风阵阵的打在我身上。。我抬头，望了望那刺眼的阳光。。
我发现，原来活在这世间上是多么的美好。。
当我慢慢的争开眼睛后，看见的事物，烦恼。。
一切已经变得不简单。。。。我喜欢一个人享受那样的安静。。
这几天，一直都开始不舒服了。。。
不知道是否是饮食不定时所照成的。。。
靠近心口的地方痛得我很想倒在地上打转，好久都没有这样了。。
旧病复发吗？原本会痛的地方已经开始慢慢的越来越严重。。
痛的次数已经让我觉得辛苦。。。
我不喜欢这样的感受。。。为何会莫名的痛了起来？
坐在巴士站，我无力的看着巴士从我面前很快速的离开。。。
我没办法站起身拦着那辆巴士。。我屈着身体感觉好难受！真的很难受！
我使劲全力想办法。。但是，感觉什么也做不到。。
痛了好一阵子后，我开始旋转。。因为我贫血。。开始头晕。。
站不稳了。。感觉像是快晕倒了一样。。。我拿起电话呆看着我和他的图像。。
莫名想立刻打电话给他，但我并没有这么做。。
昨夜他失眠了，心想他应该还在睡觉吧~所以，发了简讯给他。。
原本，我想告知他。。但是，我没办法。。却不知道为什么。。
忽然觉得这样的感觉好恐怖，我在想如果真的晕倒在此会如何。。
在我担心的同时，这样的感觉持续了一阵子后，停止了。。没事了。。
但是，我还是持续看着电话里的合照感觉好想哭。。却不知道为什么。。
忽然觉得好不被关心，好不被担心。。可是我不想把事情说出。。
同样的，我并没有让我妈知道。。我不想服药~
我走到了便利商店买了瓶水补充糖份。。感觉更糟了。。
可能因为都不想进食吧~

巴士终于来了，上了巴士后。。
感觉更难受，有点晕眩。。我倒坐在位置上。。
合着双眼，感觉很难受。。。而且觉得好累。。
下雨了，争开眼看着窗外的雨滴。。。
忽然，莫名流下眼泪。。鼻子好酸~因为我很想很想他就在我身边。。
我记起昨夜我鼓起勇气问他的问题，更一阵难受。。
我可以选择不当女孩了吗？我可以不爱人也不被爱吗？
我可以选择不要付出很多吗？好难。。我没办法。。
好想念他，很介意他们的故事，但是很想知道。。我很犯贱！
下了车，淋雨回到家。。换了件裤子。。
吃了午餐~我把电话抛在一边，我没办法思考。。
倒在床边很无力，因为开始不舒服了。。。
后来，我拿起电话就这样播了电话给他，但是并没有接。。
打了几通他也没接。。就不怎么理会电话了。。。
我好无力。。
到现在除了收了短短的几封信息。。就消失了。。
好想念他，告诉我他在哪里，好吗？
痛苦~ x_x""


我，感觉不到你的存在。。
我，感觉不到你在我身边。。
消失了吗？
距离好遥远，见面已经是一种问题了。。
我忍受，我接受，我等待。。。
我可以不顾一切只为了见他，他小小的动作，关心，爱护。。
我已经觉得很快乐，很幸福了！

在那么多的爱情当中，我学会了好多事情。。
方式。。能选择如何去爱。。如何去保护，改变。。
可能，我并没有那么爱他。。。。
但是，我很努力的想要改变什么。。
很容易发脾气，很容易吵架。。他会这样对以前的女友吗？
我想不会。。我知道他很在乎她，我也知道他很疼她。。
我想对我对她很相反。。
是否我对他而言重要吗？我得不到答案。。
或许是我想太多。。
能不能假装在乎我？我不觉得你很在乎。。
我真的很想改变什么。。。
你和别人不一样。。。

所以，
我学会了放你自由。。
我学会了体谅。。
我学会了了解。。
我学会了迁就。。
我学会了在乎。。
我学会了假装不在意。。
我学会了伪装。。
我学会了承受和成熟。。

把自己隐藏。。。
那天，我无意间看到了朋友写的东西
她写 believe 里 隐藏了 lie。。。
好有意思。。。。
真的是这样吗？我写会给她
我说：[那就用trust去选择相信]


but,i choose to trust you baby~
every time you in tired..keep say wanna slp..
how tired you are?
tonight..i wont find you..i wait you to find me..
if you care and worry...plz contact with me..
always before u slp,can chg for wad??
jz look forword.....i jz can do this....

当初的你，和现在的你都不一样了。。

i need a shoulder,
feeling hard with all the things,
feel so harmful...
i hope everythings will be fine..
u are change~
may i noe,whr are you?

``MALU day``

today,whn i wake up in the morning..
i felt tat feeling nt well...
bcoz headache & eye pain ..too bad ='(
but i still should go to sch by today..haih~
whole day also not enough energy...
keep feel so tired and sleepy...but today...
nt really gt class lar...no teacher xDD
haih~tomolo want go to sch again~sienz...
abt sch...nth happen...

after i finish sch,i have to go kepong kasturi..
i plan to tuition at thr,so ask the price lur~
woohoo! today i drive janice boyfriend's car go tuition..
wao~~1st time after i get P license drive on the road...zz
i very brave i noe xDD
janice didn't have license so,the person who driving was me..
wahaha...very dangerous on the root...
i'm very noob bcoz..i felt very nervous whn i'm driving..
the car is manual 1...so,easy sei fo on the road ....hahaha~
so,the car so pity let me bully it...always sei fo in middle road..xDDD
all car "bin bin bin" felt so funny~~
i frm batu 3 drive to kepong jusco...alr so pro joh lo...
i nvr try it before....zzz
i try to control the glad and oil...really felt so omg whn i stopped~
after we go ask the tuition,i drive to kepong jusco parking...
at upstair...this really OMG jor~you noe why?
accident!!!!!! ><" but nt me...hahaha...
i drive up,but suddenly sei fo again~><"" ish! thn keep turn bck behind..
suddenly forget i nid to stopped use hand brek..hahaha!
i so nervous whn it was stop suddenly thn keep turn bck..hak sei yan lor~!
thn all forgot alr...aihz..i think bck i really noob..how come i can suddenly forgot
all i learn geh things ler~xS
thn i called ppl to help me drive up..felt so paiseh at tat time,
i really felt so malu err!!!
but the ppl so good help us =p
before they help...janice said noe hw to drive...den turn her to drive loh..
thn she langgar the tiang at behind..tat time i really blur and dunno how..
so i faster called ppl to help me move it...
adui~hope so dun happen again...really so malu lar!!ish ish!!!
haih...after tat i cant forgot wad happen this accident today..
lucky that things no make the car mirror break...huuuu~~~~
think bck really so malu on tat time...ish ish ish~~
but god bless me pulak~=p thx god...
tat time i really hope i can run out frm thr...
finally,we can reach thr...aihz~~~i cant believe really will blur on tat time lor~
i will forgot all the things lerh~~
everytime almost langgar others ppl car but,no~ really lucky..
but i will keep train myself~aih~
den we go ate our lunch thr...after tat oni drive bck....
whn driving bck alr felt so grate..jz will sei fo bcoz the glad cant in ><"
still the same, stuck at time middle road...xD
but alr ok liao lur~~~more better thn whn going..=="
haih~~too nervous...janice also gv me pressure..make me duno how to slove the problem..
but finally i felt batter alr...
i really brave drive on today..lolx~my mom also say nth..
jz listen how i drive on today~
so funny~~even it is dangerous..but i very carefull~~
a noob 1st time driving izzit like this?? omg~
i really stupid whn i drive thn all ppl looking at me ><"
malu 9 9....aihz......
but i feel better now.....jz keep think bck the accident ..haha!!
i noe sure still gt next time i'll drive his car~
i asked him..how come he so brave gv me drive his car?
he said nth lar...drive lor...gt license den ok alr..lolx...
so syok whn listen this...the car is a new car~ viva~~
how come he so pro gv me drive??????omg~
jun han! i proud of this person ......like nth like tat..zzz
but lucky i didn't langgar anything....

after tat,i drive the car to Mutiara wait janice boyfriend finish his work oni bck..
while waiting...hehe..
i go see the bag....so,so stupid...i bought a nice bag at thr RM30
very nice at cheap =)
den they oni send me bck....
act is i want janice drive bck to Mutiara wait his bf der~
but she dun have license ...so worry...thn i send her bck to thr wait thm fetch me bck..
hahaha~ thursday still wanna drive~
hahahahaha! aihz~~hope everythings is fine! =p
i very scare if really accident will how nerh`~~~
ahem! dun think so much!
today whn happen in bad things while driving..
i keep scolding myself...in bad word...
so, now...i noe why all the ppl while driving will scold out bad word...
ish ish!! too bad~~
i driving my friend on today..so surely i have pressure la~hahaha!
dangerous lar~~
kepong side is a area a lots car and the read so small....
keep jam at thr...zzz =="
aihzz...this is a nice adventure for us..haha!
funny,nervous,brave....omg! ><"" hahaha!
i cant believe i really drive today lor~~how come i have brave to drive?
aihz........
hope next time i'll be more easy to me...better thn now =p


aihz...so tired after i drive, put a lot of energy thr...
start felt so tired~~
miss my baby deep deep...
aihz..duno whn oni can meet with him...
tomolo i should bck home early..bcoz i should wait the phone line..
and put 1 more modem....><"
aihz~~~also cant go find my baby lar~
really miss him so deep..i also duno why~='[
aihz...if he dare come find me again...sure is good things~
bcoz nth joh...aihz..sure nt dare 1 lar..suan lar~

ok lar...stop blog now...
gossip sumthings stupid happen on me...><"
aihz~~malu till hell~~TBT....
TBT stand for [tak boleh tahan] =p

today i listen 1 stupid funny things
马马虎虎 [horse horse tiger tiger ] wakakaka!!
izzt funny xDDDDD


ok lar~wanted stopped now...
take care and good night
ciaoz~

♥ tired ♥

i bck frm this Skor A 2010 seminar
since yesterday,
whole day i concentrated listen this...
tired and tired!
so,today so lazy i din't go to sch..
act,ytd is FIFA world cup final vision..
but,i...haih!!! ish! too tired alr..
so i go take a rest a while but fall asleep..
i got set alarm to wake me..but,i also duno whn i close the
alarm also..xDD
so,i no wake and watch....so regret i no awake and watch
the final match..zzz...sob sob~
spain vs holland...which won alr..
as i guess....it is SPAIN =) gratez~~
hahahahaha!
aihz.....today act i really lazy and tired go sch der~
so tat in the morning i told my mom gv me PONTENG 1 day~
act she dun let 1..but i choose to no go...i noe today sure my class less ppl..
bcoz ytd nite all watch FIFA world cup xDD
my baby also...so till now also slp die...hahaha...
oni me wake early...act i want slp bck alr lar..jz wanna finish a post here~
haih~~nth can eat at home..no food..gt maggie mee oni nia..xD
haih....so tired lar...duno tired wad also....
this few days i feel myself alr fat loh...
bcum fatty fatty and fatty~~bigger size liaw~~omg omg!!! ><"
i nid to keep fit frm now on!
my skin prob also nt really good.... my pimples come out jor...
shit man! i dun want nah~~~~xS

haha...ytd i help my mom dry her hair...
i saw still gt a bit so i also take it and dry my hair..
hahaha! funny...but i jz put a bit oni..
no really gt wad colour la...
i rebonding b4 mar~so hor,if teacher catch me...i can say tat spoil alr..xD
act i nt really gt saw the colour =x
hahahas!
haih.....wad can i eat now? feel hungry? nt really..
but i can confirm whn i finish brush my teeth..
will start hungry jor~~hahaha!i should eat my brunch now~
so how? mc'donal?again~want eat with ai cheng??hehe..
i also duno wad time she come bck home...xD
maybe she's late bck home gua~~sienzzz
later 1.30pm oni called her see how lo..
act, i gt plan today date my munjiejie out have lunch...
but lazy out also....
i also gt plan wanna date my baby too ...or go find him..
but i noe his room still gt his frenz thr...
and no energy out la...since ytd watch the football till so late...><"
hahaha!
suan ba suan ba~~~i also very lazy 1 ler~~~=p
tonight mummy no cook also...
so i have to go pasar malam buy food bck home ..
adui`~~always fan nao food der xS

hmm...mc'donal? how? kekeke...why KFC dun have delivery lerh~~too bad~
pizza hut also duno hw to order wor...
no menu also...akakaka~~
oh ya!
i remember tat kepong thr open a new shabu-shabu restaurant..
buffet 1 ner~~~i wanna go try~~duno whn ler~~xixixi....
i love...kakaka♥

nth can wrote alr...
keep gossip here also till duno wanna blog wad,
i'm bored....but happy i can stay at home today xD ♥
thx my mum oo...mwakz!♥♥♥
klar~bck to slp again....tired ma..
today stay at house is bcoz i want rest oni ♥
ciaoz~~~


[dum dum shawn♥ you lie me again..
say promise also no online till i slp..zzz..
always say sorry geh jek~~aihz...i still will wait you on9 tonite geh~]

baby.i miss you
i noe you be pig now..
dun forget whn wake up find me ya~
always wait you here..
loves you ♥